My Time

2007-01-10T19:40:00.000+13:00

new year....new blog..!!!!

http://www.sureslimsurewill.blogspot.com

2006-12-21T10:09:00.000+13:00

The year that was!!!

OMG WHAT A YEAR I HAVE HAD...AND I'M UP TO MY LAST POST OF IT ALREADY!!

I can so remember when I was emailing a year ago saying I had a job interview to go to before my last holiday..and then sneaking on at my uncles house xmas eve to say I HAD A JOB!!

I not only have a job now, I HAVE A LIFE!!!

I am losing weight.
I am feeling great.
I am doing wonderful things with myself and with cam.
We are simply living!!!

Its been a long time since we've been able to liveeeeeeee the way we want to live, enjoy OUR MONEY and not always worry or panic about my family and their crazy antics.

a year ago we were on the bones of our butt hoping the power wasnt cut off and feeding ourselves fish and chips because a packet to feed us was only $3 and thats all we could afford. A year ago I was running back and forth from wellington to help my dad and back to hamilton to have my brother living/bludging off us...

NOW omg...we brought a house for dad, we buy fresh fruit and we have people in our lives who care deeply for us and dont take us for granted. WE ARE LIVING...

and to celebrate our living...we are off tomorrow!! in the space of 3 and a half weeks we are traveling to hamilton (cams family), gisborne (OUR HOUSE and my family), wellington (to say bye to a friend going on her oe.) and tripping around the WHOLE SOUTH ISLAND!!!!! OMG...ITS OUR FIRST REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL HOLIDAY. and boy o boy WE ARE GOING TO ENJOY IT!!!!

Now many of this wouldn't be possible without Cam, he's been a dream. But there is another world in my life that I wouldn't be without. THIS ONE!! I have shared so much with you, saddness, happiness, tears, secrets..the works...there is so much to be said for blogland. When there is no where else to turn and you think you're all alone....you're not!! Its so nice to share and experience what other people are going through as wel..
This is my message for you THANKKKKKKKK YOU for an awesome year that was!!!

AND HERE'S THE THE MANY MORE POSTS, MEMORIES AND EXPERIENCES WE WILL SHARE TOGETHER.

Have a safe, merry and happy christmas!!! ENJOY YOURSELF...live life likes its meant to be lived...take it with one hand and run with it!!! ITS OURSSSSSSS TO ENJOY!!!

from the both of us, to the rest of you...

MERRYYY CHRISTMASSS!!!

HO HO HO!!!

2006-12-20T06:19:00.000+13:00

HALF A DAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Up and out early this morning, secret santa presents to drop off, paper to file and a roll to total up!!! all the fun jobs at the end of the year!!!

I have had an awesome year!!! I, like ang, will miss my little darlings but they'll still be in school and they'll be learning more than i can ever teach them...so it will be fun watching them grow up in the school....

yesterday my year was topped off!!! we had a formal prizegiving..it was really fun. I organised two dance troops for the event with some kids over the last few weeks...and in one of the dancers I and another teacher got up and joined in!!! (this was a secret from everyone!!!) it went down really well...lots of claps and laughter hehehe. my kids said to me after "you're a real cool dancer miss" hahaha.

ANDDDDDDDDDD i recieved an award at prizegiving, I thought it was just for kids...but i got one too!!! FROM THE PRINCIPAL HAHAHAH for "wonderful contribution to View Road School". The crowd went nuts (excited) when I got my award, I was very touched!!!!
And after that lots of parents came up and gave me really cool compliments my head was HUGE!!!!!!!! hahaha

food wise. I HAVE A PROBLEM. An overeating problem. its gross and i've decided just to forget it today. enjoy my last day and use tomorrow to get on track before we go away!!!

righto off to plant secret santa presents!!! ENJOY YOUR LAST DAY(S) if you're teaching (or finishing work soon)!!!

2006-12-17T16:36:00.000+13:00

33 comments OMG!!!

Thank you soo much for all your kind words. Cam and I were both very touched!!!

We are very happy!!!! We have enjoyed sharing our story with family and friends...we're still in the process of telling people - as we want to tell people as we see them rather than via text or phone. Its been fun seeing everyones reactions!!!

I AM SOOO OVER EATING. And it has to stop. Yeahhhhhh having a good time but I am not doing what I want to do. My ankle is just annoying me...so after I finish my paperwork today I am offfffff on a walk.

Cam and I have been talking lots about weddings FREAKY!! But we're probably going to talk more and think more on our holiday together...STARTING FRIDAY YEAHHHHHHH!!!

We are honestly soooooooooo happy and enjoying life right now...so happy to have lots of happy people around us helping us enjoy our life too!!!

I have gained 1kg in the week of no exercise and not following the programme...not following the programme and not exercise - IS JUST NOT AN OPTION. I dont want to be someone who is losing weight for their wedding, I want to lose weight for my life....I dont want to stress myself out about the size I am and the size I want to be...I am just going to focus on going down..NOT UP.

right. paperwork here I come. THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS!!!!

2006-12-14T16:44:00.000+13:00

HE ASKED THE QUESTION..

ohhhh my gosh..what a crazy day I have had.

Want the story?????

This morning I did my normal routine at school, photocopying, sorted the class out, headed to the hall to set up jump jam. (secretly teachers were have secret meetings without me!!!)

At 9am we headed over to the hall, and did jump jam (kids aerobics..), nothing out of the normal...then one teacher asked if she could get her kids to practise their dance infront of all the classes (allll 5 of them!!!). No worries, I got the classes to sit down and watch..my friend at school whos a teacher got me out of the hall to bitch about a school teacher that we both dont get on!!! of course i was up for it and AGAIN DIDNT THINK ANYTHING OF IT...the kids did their performance...AND THEN..

my friend said "room 8 now has an item to show..." WTF? thats my class? I have no item!! SO UP THE KIDS GOT.

"miss 14pk is lovely.."

"miss 14pk is funny..."

"miss 14pk is fun.."

"miss 14pk is caring.."

(this went down the line..)

by this stage i was crying because my class is cute!!!!

Then i got called up to the front...so off i went...

THEN THE CLASS SAID..."BUT MISS 14pk WE HAVE ONE QUESTION..."

and out came cam, he bent down on one knee and i bawled my eyes out!!!!

we're engaged!!!!!!!!! (I SAID YES!!)

this is my ring, and we'll be using my grandmothers inhertiance from last year to buy our rings!!! (this has been our plan for awhile as gran knew both of us really well).

2006-12-14T05:42:00.000+13:00

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSED.

end of year.
paperwork.
packing up the classroom.
returning resources.
kids going mental.
went for a walk.
ankle swelled up again.
STUPID ANKLE.
cant stop thinking about school.
4 and a half days to go.
SO MUCH TO DO.

eeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-12-12T16:46:00.000+13:00

blah.

blah blah blah.
things i have to do.
things i dont feel like doing.

things i want to do.
things i cant do.

its paperwork vs me time and me times is LOSING.

its all good..once its done its done. Only a week to go!!!
Finding myself nibbling on things I wouldnt normally nibble on..and eat things that arent the best choices. SEE BAD HABITS SLIPPING BACK IN!!!

STOP STOP STOP.
I am so incontrol...just letting the tired lazy me take over sometimes.

cute school story!!!
my cellphone went off during class, it was on vibrate and still on the table - so you know it makes that ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ noise and bounces around.
my little boy stilling at the talbe with me stands up, looks at my phone with deep concentration. Looks at the sides, looks up and down it...round and round it - doesnt touch it. Just looks...and then shows a sign of confusion.

WHERES THE WHEELS???

What wheels??

THE WHEELS TO MAKE IT MOVE LIKE IT JUST DID?!!

heheheheheh CUTE AYE???
back to reports. (correctly spelling errors DOL).

2006-12-11T17:18:00.000+13:00

2 turkish delights.
1 big packet of grain waves.
1 big packets of vege chips (half way through now..)
12 little blocks from a big block of cabury fudge dessert chocolate...
and a bottle of diet coke in front of me.

HUGE HUMP.

was starving after school - cam wasnt home....and i felt naughty. I was craving naughty foods...LIKE CRAVINGGGGGGGGGGGG. So i ate..and ate and ate.

so embarasing. AND I KEPT TALKING TO MYSELF THE WHOLE TIME...NO NO NO...and being positive to myself...

but i got in the car and ateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

NEW RULE: no eating in my car!!!

but in looking at it all - it was semi expected with my patterns.
hurt myself, end of term, tired... EXCUSES FOUND. no exercise. lazy tracking. BINGE BELL RINGS.

AND CERTAIN TIGGERS SET ME OFF - got really drunk on friday night and some dude smoked drugs in front of me (I HIT THE ROOF) and told him what i thought as I have lost a brother to drugs (he's around..but he's clueless and only cares about himself..have no idea what he does from day to day..blah blah) and i've been a bit upset ever since about it....then today i got a text from my mother....WITH THOSE POWERS COMBINE.....I AM CAPTAIN BINGE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its over now. so it doesnt matter, i just have to think about what i want and where i'm going. i was ashamed buying the food and avoided everyone who knows me in the supermarket because everyone knows i'm losing weight...because they can see it. AND IF I'M ASHAMED THEN ITS NAUGHTY!! thats what i tell my kids lol....PRACTISE WHAT I PREACH!!!

rant over. binge over.

TIME TO MOVE ON. (i feel so in control its great, i am in control....had a slip up..but thats ok...i've learnt my lesson...feel like poo...).

2006-12-09T19:09:00.000+13:00

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

TODAY WAS MY "GET MY DRESS I WANTED DAY WITH THE MONEY I WON FROM BIGGEST LOSER COMP" DAY....

We did the big trip into the 'city'. Looked everywhere for the dress in farmers...was losing hope. THEN I SPOTTED IT...yes!!!!

Only had up to size 20 left DOL!!!

TRIED IT ANYWAYS...IT FITS!!!

omg i'm a size 20!!!

So cam was like TRY SOMETHING ELSE IN 20...!!! SO I DID!!!

I'M A 20 PEOPLE!!! Not bad for someone who was a size 26 only 14 weeks ago!!!!!!!!!

spent up large today, got some pants - so i dont have to worry walking and holding on to my pants if something is in my pockets hehehehe...AND I GOT A NEWWWWWWW camera!!! I took a photo of me in my dress on my new camera....but our disk drive is pukaroo so the photo will have to wait hehehehe...

I never buy dresses, in fact dresses and me are like chalk and cheese....BUT THIS DRESS IS COOL....!!! even cam said...hehehehehehe!!

p.s my foot isn't broken...although it is like a big bowling ball at the moment. Cam took me to A&E this morning just to be sure...I've got some technical word that means "very bad spain" in english. got drugs and a foot support thing...so hopefully it will go down into for walking club on wednesday!!! BUSTING TO DO EXERCISE...ANY IDEAS WHILE I'M STILL A CRIPPLE??!

2006-12-07T22:37:00.000+13:00

BIGGEST CM LOST LOSER!!!!!!!!!!

thats right!!! I WON A PRIZE!!!

Most cm lost!!! ME ME ME!!!

24.9CM TO BE EXACT!!!!

I won $55!!!

I saw a dress in farmers that i really like and actually suits me (i never look at dresses but was playing around one day LOL). And I really like it and want it to wear to my cousins wedding. So cam suggested why dont I put the money towards that!! OO hehe its a $70 dress OMG...cam said he's going to top up the rest!!! HEHEHEHE

i'm going dress shopping!!!!!!!!

my gosh WHO IS THIS WOMAN??!!! (i dont do dresses!!!)

WWERS WEIGHIN: 9.9KG TOTAL LOSS DOL!!!!!!!!

(1.1kg for the week: 114.0kgs)

OOOOOOO YEAAHHHH

Next week babys next week, that 10kg is alllllll mine!!!!

2006-12-07T15:52:00.000+13:00

DUMB FOOT.

Feet suck sometimes esp fat ones...!! i'm sure my foot is thinking RUNNING SUCKS.

Spent all day working and its just got fatter!! woops!!! Cant really see in the picture but there is no shape to my foot now...STUPID FOOT. New nickname at work is hop-along.

I was up at half five this morning, as i was in a routine to walk.....so i made breakfast...had a shower and usual stuff AND IT TOOK ME AN HOUR AND A HALF TO DO THAT!!!

just when i've formed good habits and really enjoying exercise. DUMB FOOT. o well. I'm using it as a test.....DO I REALLY WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT? (der YES) IF YES, THEN DONT LET IT STOP YOU (well of course temporarily it will but i wont let it effect my eating..etc and will just pick up the walking when I am fully mended...)

ON A DIFFERENT NOTE!!

WE OFFICIALLY AS OF TODAYYYYYY OWN OUR HOUSE (DADS old house...WHICH IS NOW OURS!!!!!!!!)

2006-12-06T20:22:00.000+13:00

This is what my foot should look like....

THIS IS WHAT MY OTHER FOOT LOOKS LIKE NOW

AFTER ME TRYING TO RUN!!!! hahahaha

SORE? yes.

hahaha

Walking club tonight....was going hard to beat my time by doing lots of running like last week. Was kicking butt man!! On the last leg you go up a big hill and its a huge b**** of a hill. Cam and I always plan to run down the hill...and as we always have - we did!!! at one point you have to cross a road..i was so into running i said to cam "tell me when to cross and i'll just run across and keep gonig...." then....WAMMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my foot in a hole and a big heffa-lump rolling down the hill..but my ankle stayed behind. picture speaks for itself.

i cried. LOL. BUT NOT BECAUSE I HURT MYSELF...

because I thought I had to stop the race!!! HAHAHA SO UNLIKE ME!!!

I got up...swore, cried...tried to walk couldnt...breathed and said "lets go" was offered a ride by the marshal..."no thanks.." and hobbled the rest of the track, when it started feeling better...i walked faster..then i RAN HOME!!! (slowly...haha).

sat down....and my foot did all the talking.

weighin tomorrow...*fingers cross for a loss* *DOUBLE FINGERS CROSS FOR A BIG 10KG LOSS - not holding my breath though*

2006-12-04T19:53:00.000+13:00

CHECK IT OUT!!!

it was my final weighin for the biggest loser competition tonight....LOOK AT MY RESULTS...

starting (eight weeks ago..)
weight = 119.7kg
BMI = 40.5
CM = LOTS.

NOW...
weight = 114.5kg (THATS RIGHT BABYS I'M IN THE 114S 700G OFF 10KG ww MARK)
BMI = 38.7
CMS = lots losssssssst 24cm!!!! just in 8 weeks!!!!!

WOOP WOOP!!!

i am sooo impressed with myself!!!

there is a prizegiving this thursday where they will announce winners for the most weight lost and the most cm's lost (plus runners up as well)....omg WOULD BE SO COOL IF I WON SOMETHING...but i'm not worried if i dont I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL GOOD!!!!

Changes I have noticed now...

I'M IN THE 30S FOR MY BMI - never before..OMFG..i could cry.
I can exercise without cam.
I can run (sometimes in a walk, not the whole way though)
I SMILE AS I WALK.
I eat well and ENJOY eating well.
I can turn down dessert.
IIIIIIIII AMMMMMMMM KICCCCCCCCKKINGGGG BUTTT!!! (my butt in fact!!!)

(wwers weighin is on thursday, unsure if i'm going as i'm due for my time of the month - will see how i go...i always gain at my time of the month...i'm am confortable missing one meeting because I loveeeeeeeeeeee my meetings and i soooooooo know i'll go back the following week if i miss this weeks...but i dont know if i will miss it..anyways..just so you know the timeframe. 700G OMG BRING IT ON!!!)

2006-12-03T22:53:00.000+13:00

ITS NEARLY CHRISTMAS hehehehe..

well its december, thats close enough for me!!!

Cam and I have decided not to send out christmas cards this year - so we sent out and email today. LAZY AYE?! AND EARLY!!! hahaha

Its really the last thing I feel like doing - writing lots of cards 50000 times over saying the same thing...YAY FOR TECHNOLOGY, INTERNET AND EMAILS!!!

This is the photo we sent with our email..hehehe

AM I AVOIDING END OF YEAR SCHOOL WORK OR WHAT??!!

This week I am planning on going hard...if I do it, its done then its allllll out of the way!!!!

I'm up late tonight....doing not much, I've done my planning for the week and some more munchkin hats and some paperwork i was WAYYYYYYYYYYY behind on...and still my brain is ticking overtime...annoying OOOOOOOOO AND I THINK I'M GETTING CRAMPS and I think that means i'm getting my period. GREAT JUST GREAT!!! The day before the biggest loser weighin...I always gain lots over weighins LIKE 3 - 4KGS!!! BARRRRRRR HUMMM BUG!!!

i'm so wide awake its annoying, i'm normally asleep by now...in bed at half eight..and asleep by 10!!! ITS 5 TO 11!!!!

I am really excited about my holidays...I soo need to get my work done!!! hahaha.

Went for another walk tonight...o went for one this morning too. Tonight Cam and I went together...he hassled me the whole way around about all sorts of stuff..i think because he's really happy at the moment...weird aye hahahah.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOO I HAVE NEWS!! its funny news...like its hush hush funny news...!!!

I was talking to my dad today about house stuff..and cam had an idea so I put him on the phone and they talked about house stuff then the phone got pasted back to me....and the FIRST THING DAD SAID TO ME WAS

"that man you're marrying is a good man isnt he (coz he had a real good idea)"

I IMMEDIATELY SAID..."we're not getting married clown.."

and he was like "ooo yeah umm yeah of course your not..." and talked poos for a bit longer coz he does that (waffle waffle waffle..)

BINGO...DAD HAS BEEN ASKED PERMISSION BY CAM IF HE CAN MARRY ME...

AND IS HAVING TROUBLE KEEPING IT IN!!! haha dad sucks with those sorts of things..!!!

I told cam and he looked at me guttered, but hiding it saying "your dads a dork sometimes..." and played it up like it was nothing...

BUT NO NO NO ITS NOT NOTHING...MY BRAIN IS ALL OVER THE PLACE..LOL...no wonder i'm not doing any school work LOL.

Dont worry, I'm not worried about it...and I dont want to be one of these girls who ruins it for the boy or expects it..ALTHOUGH ITS HARD. But i"m sure with all this work i have to do and all our end of year activities we got on I'll forget it in no time - i'm good like that. BRAIN LIKE A SIEVE THEY SAY!!!

OK SOO SHOULD GO TO BED.

2006-12-03T09:56:00.000+13:00

Making munchkin hats and doing my nails is what I've been up to this weekend!!!

oOoo and I've put my christmas tree up too!!! hehehehe I did have a little cry last night putting it up thinking of family and where we are all at now (complete opposite of a family..but ya can only worry about the things you can change and thats something I cant change..so no more tears).

Do you like my red munchkin hat? Its not mine, it will be for one of my kids...hence the lack of fitting!!! We're having multi coloured ones - for the santa parade!!! This friday!! hehehe

Tomorrow is my final biggest losers check in, and last night I had a dream that I weighed in and the number that showed up was 222KGS!! holy moly!!! I woke up straight away...and got my day ready...and I'm off on a walk after this...NO 222KGS ARE SHOWING UP TOMORROW THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

ooo AND i did my eyebrows today too....avoiding school reports, can you tell??!!!!

Yesterday we had a good day, went to vibra train and then cam and I walked down to our local town got some lunch from subway some dvds and walked home again. That was nice. We watched siones wedding and take the lead last night BOTH VERY VERY GOOD!! i LOVE dance movies!!

Righto...better go and do this walk to avoid those 222kgs numbers!!!! YES...and start some reports!!!! DOL.

2006-12-02T08:30:00.000+13:00

Another 200gms down!!!

Not the best weighin, but a weighin all the same...thats a result of sweet f all exercise!!! and it shows!!! SO WHAT AM I DOING THIS WEEKEND??!!

Thats right...lots of exercise and lots of paper work!! (go the end of the year stuff)

I have now learnt that the exercise daily...is something my body needs in order to lose the excess weight!!!! So thats what I am going to do, kick back in the morning walks...!!!

Last night was a tricky night, it was a pre end of year work do (we have our official one on the last day of school). We went to the local cossie, had a HUGE FEED and drinks...I only stuck to having seafood entree and lots of veges and meat for my main!!! AND NOOOOO DESSERT!!! I was tempted at one point, so I got on my phone and made a phone call while the group was eating their sweet stuff!!! GOOOOOOOOOO ME!! I have never ever done that before!!!

The whole night I was on vodka lime and waters....niceeeeeeeeeeeee. HAD A FEW TOO MANY OF THOSE...but thats ok. I dealt with it and I will deal to it today too!!!!

Its amazing, I thought that with the weightloss I would feel different about myself - I dont. I still dont like what I see in the mirror, I dont join in group dances with the staff because of my confidence well lack of.....I'm surprised really I have never lost this much weight before and still feel the same. BUT in saying that....thats a good thing because its keeping me going!!!!

I am 1.2kg away from 10kg...I KNOW I CAN I KNOW I CAN I KNOW I CAN.

(and monday is the final check in for the biggest loser competition too.......all good reasons to pull extra finger this weekend and kick some weight off..!!!!)

have a good one...

2006-11-29T20:56:00.000+13:00

Doesnt he look cute????? HEHEHEHEH

Here is cam all dressed up, well almost. From here he was going via the warehouse to get a nice white shirt to wear with this black suit and tie!!! He's away tonight at an awards ceremony, he's quite a good hockey player and this season his team has been nominated for 'team of the year'...he doesnt reckon he'll wins but he dresses up fancy and gets a flash feed - cant say no to that aye?!! hahaha

I didnt go, I had other commitments!! That and I dont think partners were invited DOL.

Walking club tonight!!!! And I had a mission, while cam was away i was going to kick his fastest time!!!

I WALKED MY BUTT OFF AND WHEN I DIDNT WALK I RAN...our previous fastest time was 54mins!!!! WELL WELL WELL....LET ME TELL YOU....

tonight *drum roll* 47.06 MINS thanks for coming!!! woop woop!!!!

I am very happy...can you tell????

hehehehe

And while i was taking a snapshots I decided to take one of MEEEEEEEE AND MY BAGGGY PANTS....

the photos suck for showing them..but i tried and i'm proud all the same...

the one with my hand down my pants is the front...i can fit my whole fist in AND SOME...although i couldnt as my other hand was holding my camera.

the other sideways shot is my pants out to the side....heaps of room aye???

I tried to take on of my feet, but it didnt work..stupid camera. it was basically a photo of my pants WAYYYYYYYYYYYY over my feet because my butt is disappearing so my pants are getting really really really baggy and longerrrrr. LIke its runining the bottom of my pants..and I so cant see my feet anymore and i'm constantly tripping up on things as the bottom of my pants gets caught on everything hehehehe...

yes yes i know, simple things for simple minds!!!!

Just wanted to share....sharing is caring..

FYI i'm just loving life at the moment. I feel so in control and like i'm really kicking serious butt!!!

2006-11-28T17:39:00.001+13:00

BIKE RIDE THIS MORNING!!!

No walk, coz i suck...and i'm lazy this week. So instead after realising I got up too late to walk - I got my butt on the exercise bike and read a new book i'm into (pictured)!!!

So I've done a typical cara thing, postponed my triathlon....FOR ONE GOOD REASON AND SOME SUCK REASONS.

school work overload!!!! (REPORTS, ASSESSMENTS AND SANTA PARADE)
lack of training..

its more the first one because its like OMG 3 WEEKS TO GO..but i'm sort of stressed but sort of NOT. Just need to keep plodding away at it all!!!

I wore a cool outfit today..that I havent worn in like years...and i was like a bag of sacks!!! COZ IT WAS BAGGY!!! hehehehe I'll take a photo and post it later..hehehe..

thats all i wanted to report.

OOO AND I SUCK AT AFTERNOON SNACK GOAL - thats a reallllll challenge..but i'm up for it!!!

OK GOING NOW..things to do!!! Little Miss energy hehehehehe...my aunty sent me an email today saying she was really impressed with my weightloss (she saw me over the weekend)!!! HEHEHEEH

2006-11-28T17:39:00.000+13:00

BIKE RIDE THIS MORNING!!!

No walk, coz i suck...and i'm lazy this week. So instead after realising I got up too late to walk - I got my butt on the exercise bike and read a new book i'm into (pictured)!!!

So I've done a typical cara thing, postponed my triathlon....FOR ONE GOOD REASON AND SOME SUCK REASONS.

school work overload!!!! (REPORTS, ASSESSMENTS AND SANTA PARADE)
lack of training..

its more the first one because its like OMG 3 WEEKS TO GO..but i'm sort of stressed but sort of NOT. Just need to keep plodding away at it all!!!

I wore a cool outfit today..that I havent worn in like years...and i was like a bag of sacks!!! COZ IT WAS BAGGY!!! hehehehe I'll take a photo and post it later..hehehe..

thats all i wanted to report.

OOO AND I SUCK AT AFTERNOON SNACK GOAL - thats a reallllll challenge..but i'm up for it!!!

OK GOING NOW..things to do!!! Little Miss energy hehehehehe...my aunty sent me an email today saying she was really impressed with my weightloss (she saw me over the weekend)!!! HEHEHEEH

2006-11-27T18:28:00.000+13:00

before....

10kgs later...

so cant tell...lol but thats ok its a work in progress....my clothes are baggy as..like falling off styles...!! But my legs are too big still to fit into the next size down - so when i get into a new size i'll post a better photo so maybe you can tell the difference?!

If nothing else I think I look healthy, I certainly feel it!!1

I had my biggest loser competition check in today..another 500g off that so i'm happy. Really want to get into the 114s by next week - as next week is our FINAL check in before the prize giving!!! 114s would be sooo cool!!!

Of course i'm still aiming to get 1.4kg knocked off but thats a long shot..but I am trying!!!!

got my first xmas card today..from one of my childrens families A REALLY LOVELY ONE that had lots of compliments and wonderful things to say about my teaching - being a first year teacher, interaction with parents is soo scary but that was just sooooooooooo cool to hear!!!

My early morning walks have ceased off...ever since i killed my ipod. WHAT A CRAP EXCUSE THAT IS?! But it so is a justified one inside my head - outloud...SO NOT hahaha.so i'm back walking now!!! well tomorrow morning...WILL ORGANISE MY STUFF TONIGHT TO GET UP AND GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

ooo i achieved a goal last week!! NO PUDDINGS..and without realising it I DID IT...AND I HAVE BEEN DOING IT FOR AGES..WELL TWO WEEKS...without knowing. I've just replaced my puddings with hot chocolate (lite) and a few marshmellows!!! AND THIS WEEK seeing as i think i'm a goal setting machine - I AM DOING THE NO SNACKING (apart from fruit!!!!) after school!! That was slowly creeping in and I wasn't happy. SO NO AFTERNOON SNACKING!!!

ooo shortland street is on...might go watch it...havent in ages!!!

P.S OMG 3 MORE WEEKS OF SCHOOL!!!

2006-11-26T18:38:00.000+13:00

Big weekend. No Alcohol.

Very happy. Very tired. But not hung over or feeling like poos on toast.
This weekend we had my cousins 21st, it was an awesome night...lots of food and booze all round...i had lots of diet cokes and waters ON BOTH NIGHTS. Cam of course took a hit for the team...and probably drank my share as well as his BOTH NIGHTS (took my dad out to the local on the friday night).

Foodwise OOOOOOK. not fantastic...but OOOOOK. Need to get into the exercise buzz to counterbalance the not so good choices at some points of the weekend. But it was nothing to stress me out at all. I stuck to my 3 main meals...they just werent the greatest main meals.

BUT I'M LEARNING ALL THE TIME. and thats really cool. I reckon haha.
Friday night the only place open (in our hic town) was a fish and chips shop and BACK IN THE DAY i would get a burger, fish, donut and hot dog plus chips. On friday I got a fish and a hot dog and then gave away most of my chips - didnt need them. I had eaten enough - impressed? I was and cam was hehe, even though he was drunk!!!

ooooooooo I GOT LOTS OF COMPLIMENTS!!! Lots of people noticing my weightloss - its got to the point that its really noticable and people want to talk about it. I have had it a secret for soo long that its a little out of my comfort zone talking about it...but its nice to have people notice because it must mean that i'm doing the right thing and looking good. I just need to learn its ok to talk about it....and i cant hide it forever I'M DOING TOO WELL to not be able to hide it hehehehe...never been at that point before. I should take a photo and post it so you can see what people are talking about aye>?! tomorrow nights job when i'm not sooo tired...hehehehe i was up til 3am with the rest of teh drunk bums...i was impressed with myself. hahaha.

OMG CHRISTMAS IN A MONTH!!! DECEMBER THIS WEEK!!! OMG.hahaha

Really keen to get my 10kg mark this week but with the weekend that was - might be harder than I expect but definitely keen to tackle the challenge....very motivating that people notice..makes me want to keep going and show them what i'm made of!!!!

2006-11-23T19:50:00.000+13:00

OMG OMG OMG 1.4kg away from 10kg!!!!!!!!!

after a weekend of boozing (and walking to counter balance the booze) i lost 200g..!! i'm soo happy!!

on monday at my biggest loser weighin...i had gained 400g...dol...but they've gone now!!!

OMG OMG OMG i am so going to lose 10kg by next week. I AM UPING MY WALKING AND SOOOOO NOT DRINKING THIS WEEKEND (even though my dad is coming to town - alcoholic from wayyyyyyyyyyyy back hahaha).

omg i can nearly taste the 10kgs...OMG OMG OMG. i'm very excited.

i have lost a total of 8.6kg officially on the wwers programme. hehehe.

I weigh 115.3kg OMG OMG ITS GOING DOWN HEHEHEHE omg.

thats all i have to say right now. OMG. hehe.

2006-11-22T21:01:00.000+13:00

you know in all the yukness that has happened I FORGOT TO SHARE EXCITING NEWS....

last friday i went to weighin in wellington...I HIT MY UNOFFICIAL 10KG LOSS!!!! I am 115.5kgs!!!! (before officially joining wwers i lost a couple before getting into it..i wasSSSSSSS 125.5kgs!!!! NOT NO MORE!!!)

Although I know i'm not 115.5 at the moment...good old alcohol aye?! knows where the fatty storage parts are and STICKS THERE!!!

But going hard to get it off...I was happy that the last time i saw my friends in wellington i was 10kg's ago!!! hehehe

more exciting news, we went to walking club tonight .03SECONDS OFF OUR PERSONAL BEST!!! DOL!!! but but but I WON A SPOT PRIZE AGAIN!! hehehehe we had a little dry patch for awhile but tonight....i was in with a grin!! I won a hand spa pack - hand lotion and hand wash stuff....veryyyyyyyyyyy nice.

Last but definitely not least - THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT. i have felt yuk about it all hense the lack of postings this week - i just couldnt stop thinking about it...but i'm full on into getting my OFFICIAL 10KGS (1.6kgs away...) and working hard at school i just make myself nottttt think about it!!!

There is no place like blog world aye?! the one place where you know you can reveal all no matter how hard it hurts you...and there are people out there who will support and just let you know you're not alone when so often we feel so alone...hope that makes sense. Thank you.

2006-11-20T17:03:00.000+13:00

the weekend that was.

i'm back home now after a weekend in wellington.
i had a good time, it was good to see friends and get away for a little bit. EVERYONE noticed the weightloss.....and all were saying I was looking good - not really refering to the weightloss, but am at the same time because it usually resulted in them talking more about what i'm up to..etc then they'd say "that explains the weightloss girl..." (in talking about all the active things we're up too...hehe). It was coooooool to be noticed..felt like it was working BUT. this opened the doors to the "how many pts is that?....does that have lots of cals?....thats not very healthy looking" WITH ALMOST EVERYTHING I ATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish you could do weightloss without everyone around and then just a big SURPRISE!!!!!! at the end....o well....i just have to learn to deal with that stuff - glad i've left it though, my work doesnt seem to say anything to me about it...I wasnt sure if i liked that or not but now I LOVE IT. haha.

foodwise I was generally good, a few slips ups here and there...and some friends who knew i was losing weight didnt really help matters when we went to burger king and places like. in saying that I'm glad i went to try the food -- BECAUSE IT TASTES LIKE POOS ON TOAST!! wont be doing that again in a hurry!!!

so on a completely different note and a bloody uncomfortable one - something not soo good happened in the weekend. like the more i think about it the more sick i feel about it all...the more "if only i had's..." pop into my brain....i want to tell people because i'm so mad...and then i dont because i feel like a right plonker...or i'll just blubber...i hate blubbering to people and making them feel uncomfortable. so what should i do? blog it. easiest way to get it out without getting it out...so to speak. the only person who knows is cam...and even when i talked to him i stopped mid conversation and changed the subject because i was uncomfortable and wanted to be sick.

on saturday night it was my friends party, who's going overseas (reason for my weekend away). I had an awesome night...had lots of vodka lime and waters...wasnt on my a$$ or anything..just really happy..we went to the local pub and i saw my brother, taht was really cool - i have no contacts for him or anything so it was a real buzz to see him...anyways when the night came to the end we (my friend and her friends and myself) ended back at her place, where the party started...there were a few people still around by they were out to it on the couches or in bed....

my friend has a double bed and there was the intention i would sleep in there with her - nothing in anyway wrong with that....we often do it when we crash...but i said no i wont because i have a habit of cuddling cam in the middle of the night so i didnt want to do that and make the other girl feel uncomforable, which worked out ok because another girl was there who needed a bed so she went in that one.

I went out to the couch and fell to sleep almost instantly - 3am approx.

I woke up to one guy who was at the party touching me on my breasts, I got such a fright. I wacked him out the way...thinking he was just drunk and dumb and fell back to sleep as he went back to his couch (he was on another couch in the lounge - there were three of us sleeping in the lounge)
The next time I woke up his hands were between my legs, I got such a fright. I grabbed his hair and pulled him away from me and told him if he didnt watch himself I would charge him with rape. I think I got just as much of a fright as he did, he went back to this couch to sleep....he didnt move again after that. I eventually fell to sleep again at 5am for an hour or so.

I havent told anyone because I didnt want it to ruin my friends weekend as everyone was together for it. In the morning i got up and cleaned the house, it was lucky that dude had to leave early so I didnt hardly see him again....and hopefully never again. i thought I was fine with it...like just brush it off stufff.....

but as teh day went on I felt yuk and i was tired from not having much sleep...and today i cant stop thinking about it. I feel so voilated and sick.

i told cam I wished i had called the police at the time or given him a black eye - so he had something he had to explain to people...but its all the 'if only i had...' blah blah blah.

tomorrow i normally have release (day of non contact teaching time) but i just want to keep busy...so i'm teaching, and not doing so much thinking. i just feel yuk about it.

i wont do anything, i wont tell my friend...that dude was only there as a cousin of my friends flatmate so why upset her about it when really its over with and she has soo much going on with organising herself to go overseas.

i just wanted to get it out. i have now. thanks for listening.

2006-11-16T06:55:00.000+13:00

survival mode today....

yesterday I walked 4km in the morning, like I Have been all week (very proud), then last night we had our walking club....the route got changed and mate I could feel it!!!

This morning...I could feel it more.

I got up for my walk..and didn't go fast - i just wanted to do it this morning, so my 4km took 47mins as opposed to 40mins and i got overtaken LOTS. But I was in survival mode!!!

Tomorrow is weighin in wellington - soooooo hope the scales show my progress but i understand that it might not either just yet...see i'm learning!!!

Tonight i am flying to wellington...day off tomorrow YAY!!! Be good to get away for a long weekend....!!! I am planning on walking each day - i need to this weekend involves alcohol of large amounts!!!

Right, seeing as my walk took longer this morning I have less time to get organised!!
Will post when i return...return sunday night....probably post again monday...

have a wonderful weekend!!!

2006-11-15T07:29:00.000+13:00

AND AGAIN....another 40min 4km walk this morning!!!

HEHEHEHE

i'm actually loving it....OMG did i say that?! i AM...i crank my ipod and pound the pavements and sometimes even sing!!!!

Last night cam and i went for a 10min walk around the block together..we left it a bit dark OOPS.
Tonight is our walking club...!!!

Found a meeting in Wellington I am going to go to...friday 9.30am.
Found a vibra train clinic I'm going to go to too....

I AM IN THE ZONE!!!

funny kid story..."MISS 14PK...*she rubs my tummy* you're getting fat" WTF?! hahaha I said "its because I eat naughty children" then walked away going...WAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR THE LAST 3 MONTHS????!!! lol. 5yr olds gotta love em...hahaha

2006-11-14T07:10:00.000+13:00

5.50am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WENT FOR A WALK....4KM WALK EVEN!!!

4OMINS LATER I WAS HOME!!!

omg it was sooo beautiful. i could walk the streets without kids calling my name (the woes of being a teacher in a small town..)...i had my music cranking...and i was pounding the pavements!!!

SOOOOOOOO going to do it again tomorrow..!!!

Soooooooooo IMPRESSED WITH MYSELF!!! hehehehehe

thanks for the new people readnig and commenting...i've updated my favourites and my mission tonight is read through the blogs to see how everyone is going...didnt do it yesterday or sunday...i love reading blogs...so motivating...!!!

have a good tuesday!!1

2006-11-13T19:30:00.000+13:00

ONNNNNNN MYYYYYY WAYYYYYYYYY!!!!

went to my weighin for my weightloss programme today - shape it up!! Its a programme i've been on just to keep me going...its a competition to lose the most weight..blah blah. I know i probably wont win anything...but OMG....the results today show that i'm 116.5kg!!!!

ITS GOING DOWN BABY!!

I am only 500g off 115s!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG COOOOOOOL!!!!

I am going away this weekend - to WELLINGTON!!! So I am going to look for a meeting down there to attend over the weekend, as I'll be on a plane thursday night...and i really want to see if i can get to the 115s on or by this weekend!!!

BECAUSE THAT WILL MEAN THE LAST TIME MY FRIENDS FROM WELLINGTON SAW ME I WAS 125 something kgs.....AND THAT MEANS I WOULD HAVE UNOFFICIALLY LOST 10KG!!! (officially in wwers it will be 113.9kg's).

oo another thing.

I HAVE BANNED DESSERTS FROM MY MOUTH THIS WEEK.

instead. I will have diet hot chocolate with marshmellows if i'm having the craving.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS. 115kg HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2006-11-12T19:42:00.000+13:00

Dedicated to my man.

This is Cam.

He's MY man.

He takes care of me.

Even when I want him to leave me be.

I fall into a hole and cry.

He holds my hand and again we try.

He cooks me dinner every night.

He holds on to me real tight.

He wipes my tears.

And helps face my fears.

This is my man.

His name is Cam.

This weekend I faced a horrible *fat* experience...and before i knew the experience was coming I was a bawling mess in the van and wouldnt move. Cam talked to me, he reminded me of my goals and what i love about life....and with him at my side I just went out and did this thing....

...yes as expected the dumb fat experience happend....but cam kept talking to me and was JUST THERE.

words can not discribe how much I love this man...my heart breaks to think of what i've put him through with my family background and baggage....as well as my fat issues. he's always been there...he's never said a bad word about my family or my weight....he just knows what i need to do and helps me to do it!!!!

This is why this post is just for him.

(photo of us at our walking club....not the most flattering photo...but its a work in progress!!!!)

2006-11-10T20:53:00.000+13:00

I've been noticed!!!

Conversation with one of my MALE (old man who doesnt really notice things or say much about anything unless its to make the staff laugh...)staff mates and cam....(i was not around..)

cam and him are sitting at the pub...talking about random school/work things...then out of no where....

Teacher "is cara on a diet?"
Cam "yeah..umm no..we're just trying to watch what we're eating.." (cam got a fright by the q's)
Teacher "she's lost a hell of a lot of weight...looking really good and healthy.."
Cam "has she? havent noticed" (LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL cam playing it 'cool').
Teacher "yeah shes looking good.."

after we left the pub (i arrived later on..) cam told me, he was soo excited to tell me...hahaha

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy....giving me the plug I needed to keep going aye...not that i'm getting skinny but that i'm looking healthy and doing good...aye?!

I'm happy. hehehe

2006-11-09T07:22:00.000+13:00

No spotprize again this week in our walking club - have we lost our touch???!!!

did a 'normal' time for us...didnt run much compared to the last few times when we've been getting our best times. Today we were 2mins slower than last week. OOPS.

I am organising a hangi at work for the kids....its been a mission man, but I think its going to work!!! brought all the food last night and today we are spending the afternoon with the kids preparing it....then tomorrow the ground is going to fire up!!! Some teachers told me I was a fool for trying to organise it.....poofy poo to them..!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FOUND LOW CARB BEER!!! Cam and I walked through pak n save last night and its on special a dozen for $20!!! I worked out the points too - 1.5pts per drink!!! My plan is to try it in the next few weeks!!! I like drinking beer of other alcohol...i'm glad something has come out wwers friendly!!!

No athletics day yesterday, rain bucketted downnnnnnnnnn!!! Spelling test instead ahhhhhhhhh hahahaha!!!!

Better go...another crazy lazy morning!!! Cam's back - in full dorkness form!!!
We're going to vibra train tonight!! No wwers this week, going on tuesday as I'm on a plane next thursday to wellington so I wont be able to make it!!!

have a good thursday!!!!

2006-11-08T07:38:00.000+13:00

oooooooooo the pain...!!!

man i feel like a woman!!! hahaha
With the pain comes bloatedness....fattiness....laziness...blahiness...

This week I have struggled to get on my bike in the mornings...!!! I have just 'SLEPT IN'....the pattern is all out of sink because cams' not here..you know when you have patterns and routines..and he was away yesterday and today...and blah is what I feel. When he's around..I want to make him proud..he keeps me going when i'm not going....he supports me when i need it...and this week..he's not here..man i've noticed it!!!

that and my period pain!!! haha

went to vibra train last night..that was good. i'm getting really into it....

I do have to say....I get scared and lack confidence going to things like that by myself..but i sucked it up and just went...it was really good. I'm not as chatty as cam is...so I noticed not having my side kick there making me laugh every five mins...he's back tonight and we're walking in our walking club tonight....

i must remember to laugh at his jokes more...rather than tell to say "shut up dork". haha...because i definately noticed when my dork was not around!!!

for the record, i'm not giving up...i'm still going that 10kgs is waiting for me..just not this week..hahaha my tummy feels like it weighs a tonne!!!! haha

2006-11-07T16:51:00.000+13:00

blah.

thats how i feel. i have been feeling so good and then last nights gain - which isnt really a gain but it is has made me blah. Still eating well....until 4pm then I suck for about an hour...not really eating bad foods just not following the no count plan..then i'm back on track.

Things i need to change...
what i'm eating at 4pm
drinking more fluids
more cardio on cardio days.

i think it might be because i slept in this morning too and didnt do my bike...which is dumb because I really like it. So tomorrow i'm getting up to do my bike...I feel more awake on top of things ..and just generally really good!!!

oo I won a $10 voucher today...I entered it when I brought my new biking book (book i read while i'm on my bike lol)..so i'm stoked with that!!!

ummm nothing else to report...home alone tonight!! Cams away on a job...i'm going to get off my butt soon get down to vibra train...then get some crepe paper from the shop (as its athletics day tomorrow..and i always dress my kids in mad house colours!!!)...then come home feed myself and get stuck into paperwork!!!!! joy.

not going to weighin this week...one blah is bad enough. i'm on track so its not going to worry me missing one meeting because I feel in control. Cam is keep tabs on me as well and he thought it was a good idea...JUST THIS WEEK THOUGH. need to work hard and get this fluid off me...MONTHLY WOMEN DUTIES SUCK!

2006-11-04T12:42:00.000+13:00

Changes I've noticed...

Cant eat a footlong anymore...(well i can - but i feel sick)
I have LOTS OF energy...(by the time cam woke up this morning the WHOLE HOUSE WAS CLEAN - it was a huge mess)
I am eating to live, not living to eat.
I feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel good.....I am happpppppppppppppppppier. (cam noticed)
Choosing healthy options, not even considering the alternative. It's not an option.
Crave exercise.

WHO IS THIS WOMAN?!?!?!?!?!?!

2006-11-02T20:48:00.000+13:00

1.3KG GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

116.9kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in the 116s....goal achieved..just haha. BUT BUT BUT it wasnt a flickering 116.9...it was a definate 116.9..you know how sometimes it flickers...we it didnt tonight!!!! I'm definately in the 116s!!!!!!!!!!!!

lightest since being with cam (four and a half years!!!!)!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG COOL!!!!!!!!

7KGS LOST....
...MOST I'VE LOST SINCE DOING ALL MY WWERS EFFORTS EVER!!!!!!!!!

andddddddddddddddddddd i went out to dinner friday night...anddddddd I went out on the booze saturday night....BUT THAT SHOWS ME..THAT I CAN MAKE GOOD DECISIONS...I CAN STILL GO OUT AND BE 'NORMAL' BUT MAKE GOOD DECISIONS.

OMG I COULD CRY!!!

I'm sooo motivated right now....I'M LOVING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So want to hold on to this feeling forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

going to bed now with my warm fuzzies....to get on that bike again tomorrow morning!!! OOOO and i'm 3kg off 10kg...OMG I CAN FEEL IT....OMG OMG OMG...

AIMING FOR 115s next weighin....OMG 115s..hehehehe

p.s did the lawyer thing...very adult like...we had nooooooooo idea what we were doing...but we got an agreement between us...and WILLS...and the house selling stuff done too!!! eek...

funny story...the lawyer lady asked about 'our relationship' she classed us as defacto. Then she asked "are you planning on getting married in the near future..." STUNNED SILENCE FROM BOTH OF US!!! then we all cracked up laughin....she changed her question "are you engaged" and we both said "NO" hahahaha. she cracked up again.

MORNING UPDATE: 20mins on the bike again this morning...OO YEAH!!!! O YEAH!!! Every morning this week O YEAH!!! hahaha

2006-11-02T06:49:00.000+13:00

ANOTHER BIKE RIDE.....this morning...

and 5.5km walk last night with the walking club. WE BET OUR TIME LAST NIGHT UNDER 54MINS!!! slow aye?? but I'M NOT COMING LAST ANYMORE!!! I use to...I dont know...and sometimes I even run.

Feeling really good. Just finished aj's book....MOTIVATIONALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL wo-man!!

weighin tonight..excited....never been excited to go to weighins before...well i have this time around...but in the past its something I hate...and dreaded. I know the meetings are cool...and I know i'm doing well....dont care if the scales dont show it tonight - I KNOW.

will update tonight...seeya

2006-11-01T06:50:00.000+13:00

ooo oo ooooooo you're not going to believe this....

i did another 6am cycle...thats not my news, i even went to 22mins coz i was too busy reading my book...hahaha

MY NEWS...i did another sneaky....i know its just the morning and it doesnt count...but for the first time in YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS THE NUMBERS READ....

115.6KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i know this wont be official for wwers tomorrow night....but come on....I'm secretly exciting...

being a night weighin i'm expecting 116 something....I'll be guttered if I dont do it...lol...but I'm on track..just got to "keep on swimming...swimming swimming.." hahahaha

ooo sooooooooo exciting, this morning I have officially lost 10kgs since easter this year, but it doesnt count coz my wwers one is 123.9....but worth celebrating by myself aye?! just to keep me going...hehehehehe

ok so have to go get ready for school...what an exciting week this has been...hehehe

2006-10-31T18:31:00.000+13:00

our house....well after the lawyers do their thing!!!!!!
WE GOT THE HOUSE LOAN!!!!!!!!

Full steam ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Very happy, well its still dads - he'll live there. We just own it. But thats huge for us, as we wanted a rental property next year as an investiment!!! Its all happened really fast - crazzzzzzzzzzzzy!!!!

Foodwise good today...I really suck at afternoon snacking...!!!! not bad..but not good either..!!!!

Will get my butt on the bike tonight to counterbalance that all....

just wanted to share about our house hehehehe

2006-10-31T07:30:00.000+13:00

117.1KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oo did a sneaky this morning...I'M SOOOOOOO CLOSE TO 116KGS!!
THATS MY GAIN AND MORE GONE...sooo naughty...but its going to help me to stay on track and keep doing what i'm doing..!!! weighin thursday night.....so need to put in my all to get to the 116s!!!!

did another 20mins today....woke up late but still did it....and im having my breaky now too....so i'm going for gold!!!

cam and i went to vibra train last night....it was awwwwwwwwweeeeeeeesome!!! Love it!!!!

better go...running late..so just wanted to share!!!
nearly at the end of my cycle reading book - aj's book..the first one..
whats a good motivational one to pick up next????????

p.s house stuff...should hear today or tomorrow if we can buy the house. in answering a few questions...yes have a house to buy - my dads. he cant afford to live there...so we're applying to buy it and all going well dad can keep his house and we dont have to worry about tenants either!!!! SOOO BIG FINGERS CROSSED...will post a picture of the house if we get it!!! eek..

2006-10-30T18:34:00.000+13:00

APPLIED FOR A HOUSE LOAN!!

eek!!

Find out either tomorrow or the next day EEK!!

Cam and I are eating homemade pizza for dinner then going to vibra train!!! hehehe YAY

have a good monday night!!!

2006-10-30T07:03:00.000+13:00

6am wake up

20mins cycle - read weightloss book while cycling!!!
Made my lunch - stuffed potato and LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTS OF FRUIT (and prunes!!!)
Made breakfast - eating it now...spag, chicken bacon and pouched egg.
Put the rubbish out...

Still need to have a shower and get ready..but making good PRODUCTIVE TIME!!!

Made a list last night of duties I want to do each morning and night...

Night: Do the dishes, cycle 20mins at least, put load of washing on, tidy lounge...cant remember last thing...
Morning: Cycle 20mins, Pack lunch, make breakfast, hang washing out, wipe down bathroom

anyways day one and ITS WORKING!!!!!!

gotta go...have a good monday!!!
p.s seeing house money lady tonight....

2006-10-29T08:39:00.000+13:00

Thank you.....

Its soo nice to have some good advise from people who understand...and dont judge me on my decisions - but simply offer their advise on what they do!!!!

Let me refer you to the wwers forum...I posted a similar message on the forum...and I had someone tell me to change my friends..and other little unhelpful comments made....its interesting for some to judge without knowing me..or the whole story...I was a bit guttered about it...then I thought...who cares...I know what i'm doing...its meant to be a supportive thing....i'll just ignore the parts that arent!!!! THANK GOODNESS FOR BLOG...!!!

Rant over.
I didnt change my friends for the record...or not not drink. I drank vodka lime and waters - they were beautiful!!!! Danced the night away....ooo and cam and I walked to the pub...and walked home. Unfortunately the food thing sucked...as I didnt realise the time...and in a small town community the only thing open late at night is fish and chips!!! So slipped up there....but on the whole it was a good night...and drink wise I was FANTASTIC!!!! Very proud of myself...esp after walking home too...yay for me and cam!!!!

Today we're going for another walk - this time around our walking track we do for the walking club...we're in training to beat our time this week!!!!! hehehe

ooooooooooo yesterday we went to vibra train...man that was SOOO COOL!!!! Anyone who has one near them - go try it out!! the first time is free!!! and the times after that are CHEAP!!! Well worth having a look at!!! Once you get the hang of it...the workouts are only 15mins long...AND MATE THEY WORK YOU OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my legs are feeling it today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ummm no other news...ooooooooooo i got a bendon voucher for my birthday and yesterday I spent it on the most expensive sports bra i've ever owned...OMG ITS SO GOOD...i spent all yesterday afternoon jumping up and down....telling cam to LOOK....and showing him the lack of bounce I have now!! hahahaha...its sooooooooo good!!!

Having a few toilet problems again...think I need to put prunes into my daily diet now...!!!

Other than that THINGS ARE ROCKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s we're talking more and more about engagements and weddings at present...which is cool...just the motivation I need to keep going...hehhehe

2006-10-28T10:49:00.000+13:00

PANIC STATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!

advise needed desperately!!!

Last night I went out with my rellies to my cousins 21st birthday dinner - it was asian foods, cant remember exactly what...but like sweet and soar pork, chicken fried rice...THE WORKS. you ordered and then everyone shares. I was carefully with what i ate, but couldnt help it when it was dripping in all sorts of stuff. I only ate to fill my tummy I didnts over eat. That I am happy about. I had one beer - because everyone else was and I didnt have diet coke or any diet mixes in the shop - WEIRD AND FUSTRATING!!! So I had one beer to go with my meal - as I always have a water or diet drink with my meals. THEY DIDNT SERVE WATER EITHER. weird place. Glad it was a once offer. Soooooooo that was that night.

TODAY....... i am going to try our vibra train - hopefully sort of counter balance the food I had last night!!

Today I am eating spag and pouched egg, then lunch I intend to eat sushi...dinner...THIS IS MY PANIC....
this avo is the opening of a new section in our local pub - we FINALLY HAVE FRIENDS IN THIS TOWN...and are meeting up with them for a "big one".

my plan is to sneak off and go have a feed of subway around the corner at some point....probably just when the hot chips and stuff comes out....if not i'll be strong...and not eat them...and have a chicken salad off there menu when its closer to dinner time. That I am ok with.

PROBLEM....WHAT DO I DRINK??
I normally just say stuff it and drink...but that was last weekend..and that resulted in a big fat gain...

Drinking beer makes you feel fatty and gross...and I'm assuming its just not good. I do need to consult the wwers bible however.

I have consider the following options:

drink wine....wine and water...wine..then water...wine then water....can someone tell me what this does??? does it just help you to feel fuller??? not too sure...

or should i do the vodka lime and waters?????? they're always a goer....

any other suggestions?????????????
I have done the non drinking thing with this group...but i just feel out of it..and i get tired easily...so i want to drink and feel social...so they dont think i'm a square all the time (no offense to non drinkers....)

fyi for one hour tonight its free alcohol....beer and wine....lol. i love this town.....!!!! I will be going for the wines then....or i could just not have any of it....WHAT ARE YOU KIDDING?! LOL.

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee any advise...??!!!

2006-10-26T21:05:00.000+13:00

gained. 700gms.

wine and food fest combined with having toilet issues....soooooo not worried...just taking it in its stride.....

i'm soooooooo ok with it. not in a bad way. in a good way. as i sat there waiting for my meeting to start - i wasnt a crumbling mess...i sat there thinking how this is soo different from the other times i've tried and failed. weird but true. i can celebrate the following changes even though i've gained....

i can walk through a supermarket and only get what i need.
i eat fruit for my morning teas everyday without fail.
i joined a walking group and actually go.
i have lost 5kg PLUS SOME and still doing the programme.
i look forward to meetings.
i can talk about weight and support with cam.
i eat 3 meals a day.
i dont snack on foods i dont need (unless its the weekends or on special occasions - thats huge for me.)
i have the willpower to keep going.
i can watch everyone eat their shared lunch/morning tea or dessert and feel ok about eating fruit and vege.
i am enjoying the lifestyle change.
i have collarbones.
i have a partner to share this experience with.
i am looking after me (not my dad....or brother...or tag ons...taking care of other things...)
i am motivated.

side note: house person coming to help us with our mortage application on monday - we'll have an answer tuesday whether or not we can be home owners. EEK.

2006-10-25T21:44:00.000+13:00

decisions decisions.

so today we got an offer from my father that we are pretty stupid to turn down - it will result in us owning our first home (and dad living in our home).

this week we are number crunching and talking to a money man. we are hoping it works because it was what we were working towards for next year....only minus the real estate people and dealing with strangers who would be tenants.

so weird to think something like that can change so quickly.

we're pooing our pants (unforunately for me, fortunately for cam LOL) AT THE SITUATION. Thats like REAL adult like. my gosh.

its a nice feeling to do the ultimate thing for my dad...giving him a home to live in while also giving us our goal we were working towards next year. its a worrying time coz it might not work....and its scary to go into buying a house and dealing with lawyers and really having no idea what is ahead of us..but knowing its good..getting into debt LOL.

on a different note, starting to function again...not completely. Brought some good pills....started the wheels in motion so to speak...but not totally fantasticly. so i've invested in a big packet of PRUNES. thanks for your advise ladies. lol.

Walked again tonight....cam won another spot prize the tin bum. voucher for vibra train - just what we wanted to go try it all out!!!! so if we cant see a bank money man tomorrow night..we're going to vibra train.

didnt do a fast walk...infact...i cried. i was just soo tired - had a really rough day...kids..staff dynamics...the works...and being overtaken after working so hard for weeks at not being overtaken....i just cried and walked and cried..poor cam lol.....but on the upside i still walked..i didnt binge (WAS SO GOING TO GO TO THE BAKERY THIS MORNING...BUT REALISED IT WOULD MAKE ME WORSE)..anddddddd yummy apple stickers i made the kids from school collect - we scored $944 worth of gear for our efforts.

sooo all in all it was a day...and there will be another day tomorrow...hopefully with more walking towards the toilet!!!

morning update: prunes worked LOL.have a good thursday!!

2006-10-24T21:10:00.000+13:00

poo foods = feel like poo.....

but doesnt make you poo. LOL. wine and food fest haunting me i think.

i cant poo. i tried and tried and tried....its so bad i feel so bloated and in 4 days i've gained 2kg according to my scales which arent always reliable!!! But i know i feel heavy anyways.

So I went to the shop and get me some fast poo pills. Hopefully tomorrow I will wake up and POO. lol. its like a feel like a need a poo but then i wont poo...so i constantly feel this weight on my tummy but nothinggggggggggg wil come out. lol. sorry. has anyone had this problem?! my gosh i hope not..its so not fun.

excuse the poo talk. But i just have to get it out - on every level LOL. sorry. terrible. lol.

do you ever get to a point where you feel so disorganised..you just have to get organised. cam and i have spent the last two weeks seeing family and now my house and classroom feels terribly disorganised. its my mission this week to feel organised (and poo). lol.

nz teachers: do you do the teachers insurance???? is it good??!! AND what do you think of the new curriculum....I LOVE THE COLOURS LOL...that was my feedback to my school. and the flip out thingies hahahahaha...

so ummmm on the house front - cam and i are off to a mortage broker this week to see what our options are. dad is keen if we are to share the house....looks like all going well we could own a house sooner than we thought...SCARY THOUGHT. of course we really have NO IDEA about anything to do with a house or if we can even get one of those mortage things lol....but we're trying so we shall see.

i have a b!tch of a headache..its been on in my head ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL day. So went to the local supermarket and go some serious anti headache drugs and poo pills - and cam thought i was going to have a binge hahaha...proved him wrong!!!

ok going now...to rest my body...and let the pills do their work LOL.

overshare central today. i'll write a better post tomorrow.

2006-10-21T22:49:00.000+13:00

having a lovely weekend in gisborne.

its been a bit difficult emotional wise at times. This is the first time I am in my dads new house - last time i was in my dads house, it was our family home in wellington. this isnt our family home. but after having a day to get over it - this house is good for my dad.

we've spent the day catching up with friends and family.

I had a few cool comments "look at you..." "you're looking so well.." "check you out.." i'm assuming they're meaning my weightloss and generally looking well and healthy?! well i'm taking it as that.

food and everything has been good up until fish and chips tonight. very difficult in a big group trying to be healthy. dont have the "balls" to be different yet...take another option than everyone else if you know what I mean.

tomorrow points will be out the window..but there will be lots of walking..at the wine and food festival. we werent going to go..but lots of our friends are going..and we decided to "stuff it" and not worry about money for a day...because we're in a situation now where we know the rent is getting paid, our bills are all in credit..so we can 'splurge'....so tomorrow we are!!! We're dressing up and hitting the winerys. hehehe. will definately be taking photos...!!! I did my nails tonight..just because haha. everyone who goes in my age range tends to be skinny minis..but tomorrow cam and i are just going..for us. we dont care what we look like, what we do..as long as we have fun together. its soo cool to be able to do that....in our previous years we've never had this chance...money was always tight and i was always going between study and travelling to wellington to help my dad...ITS ALL ABOUT FUN now!!!

another thing that has happened...which is kinda good..well only if it all happens..but no worries if it doesnt.
my mother who has been living with dad (as flatmates...long yukky story..that really doesnt need to go into...as i have in the past..and thats really where it needs to stay at this stage in my life..COZ ITS ALL ABOUT ME NOW LOL)..has taken a job in a different town...which means shes moving on. My dad is on a benefit and really cant afford to live in this house. their orginal plan was to have mum's share still in the house so dad can still have his 'own home' but judging in the past i was a little worried about this.but didnt share this with him. anyways...cam and i talked..and we've said to him...if he wants to think about..we'd like to put an offer on her half of the house she owns...so we have a house (investment..which is waht we are saving for for next year anyways) and we dont have to worry about filling it with tenants...AND dad will be able to afford to live in his house...because we wouldnt interfer at all with it. we have no idea if the bank or let us..but dad is thinking about it. it is a long shot..but its something that is sort of happening..but not..lol. if it doesnt, its nice to give him an option anyways. its really good offering your dad something we have...after him looking after me for so long through my childhood.

righto. my nails have dried. and i am getting up at 7am tomorrow to make myself beautiful (actually just casual..but with a makeup mask on LOL that will come off after the first few wines)...best be off.

p.s i feel so in control of my food...that tomorrow i'm not worried about..i just need to kick up the exercise during this week to keep on top of it all...but really its soo nice to be able to 'splurge' in everyway..haha.

2006-10-19T21:53:00.000+13:00

CAN YOU SEE THEM????

very hard to see...but the point of my self posing photos...IS MY COLLAR BONES..

i found them again..I HAVE COLLARBONES!!!

not as defined as a skinny minnie but for this fat chick getting skinny....ITS YAY FOR ME!!!

hahahahaha

oooooooooo so umm i went to weighin tonight....

117.5KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOTAL 6.4KG LOSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
one stone lost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

very very happy.
5kg curse beaten!!!!

goal next week to be in the 116s!!! SO GOING TO DO IT!!

going away for the weekend - yet again cam and i are up late doing our washing and packing...we're terrible hahahahahaha...
heading to gisborne tomorrow after school/teachers only day!!! woop woop!!

not sure when i'll update...but keep looking for my collarbones in the meantime and i'll hopefully find a little bit more bone in next weeks photos...

wonder if anyone will notice my weightloss..?? last time i saw some people in gisborne i was 125kg!!! who cares if they dont. i'm doing it for me. planning on doing a big walk in the weekend....one to get away from difficult family situations and two ME ME ME 116 ME!

going to pack now...have a good long weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-18T21:01:00.000+13:00

Short post.

thanks for the birthday messages.

walked 5.5km tonight in 54mins.

getting faster.

didnt win a spotprize.

lucky streak is gone.

but fitness levels is not.

feeling better about walking.

less tired at the end of it.

school is going good.

got a cool writing programme happening at the moment.

very proud of that.

not so good at maths.

really need to work on that.

busy organising jump jam challenges.

so good for someone losing weight.

also organising a school trip to some xmas concert.

loving that.

not loving opinions of people who do nothing.

cant be helped.

JUST DO IT. haha.

Also organising a junior day out.

Seniors get sports days out.

So i'm doing a junior one.

coz juniors dont get anything special haha.

loving this organising stuff.

feeling like i'm contributing to the school.

weightloss going good.

staying away from scales so dont get upset or hopes up.

going to weighin tomorrow night.

looking forward to going back to meetings.

really in control of my food.

feel so good right now.

went shopping yesterday.

brought nothing special.

cam said he noticed a nice sense of feeling good about me.

going away for the weekend on friday.

Going to check out my dads new/old house.

he's been there a year and i havent seen it yet.

been good not going back and forth is look after him this year.

i have not desserted him.

he has other family around him now.

ummmm thats all folks.

FEELING GOOD.

GOING GOOD.

I'M GOOD.

seeya.

2006-10-16T18:46:00.000+13:00

the big 2..............6!!!

Thats me, a whole nother year older!!!
just like that another year is over. and its been a good one i have to say..all my dreams have come true plus more. that is apart from weightloss...but we'll get there!!

So my birthday weekend was wonderful.
Friday was a full on kids party fest....lots of flowers, chocolates, pressies...!!!
I even had special flowers (refer to image) sent from aussie from the beautiful hayley!!!
She made my day..and the kids..they went around telling everyone i had australian flowers!!! the clowns.

That evening we headed to cam's parents house with a secret cousin stashed in the back...
it was very exciting. And the look on cams mums face was priceless...very very exciting...

then again on his dads, his brothers..and the rest of the whanau/family. VERY VERY COOL.

Well it was cool...until i found out the whole family thought we were coming over to make AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shes a shocker that cams mum!!! She wants grandbabies..LIKE 4 years ago...and then she had a good talk to cam about finding a ring MY GOLLY GOSH.

little does she know...things are in motion - so to speak!!!

SO NOW lets talk weightloss.

I WENT TO MY WEEKLY WEIGHIN FOR THIS EXERCISE PROGRAMME I'M DOING - 117.7kg BABY!!!!!!!!!! 2 KG LOSS....lost all my gains and then some!!!! VERY VERY HAPPY

andddddddddd yesterday i did a walk...the 15km i was building up to for ages - i did my fastest time ever. just under two and a half hours - I KNOW THATS STILL AGES..but for me..mate that is like the speed of light!! hahaha. ANDDDDDDDDD I SCORED A SPOTPRIZE!!! a bottle of wine..thank you very much eheheheheh.

ok i'm going now...aiming to be in the 116s next week...wwers weighin on thursday too....I'M SO IN THE ZONE!!!

2006-10-13T06:23:00.000+13:00

Its friday..its friday....

just a quick EARLY MORNING UPDATE....wont be here over the weekend...cam has just left to pick up his cousin (dont know if you read or remember but he was along lost cousin who we found...and we're surprise cams dad and uncle -whos over from aussie with him....his uncle hasnt seen him in 17 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). heheh very exciting.

Today is MISS 14pk's pretend birthday. My kids in class dont have normal lives...somethings that are normal to them your hearts would break over. So we decided to have a coooooooool party today. KIDS HAVE BEEN COUNTING DOWN ALLLLLLLLL WEEK!!! nutters.

I have organised hot chips for their lunch and we are having a fun day - with some structure...based around sharing and working together - BOY do we need it.

So I am very excited..hehehehe and the fact i'm going away for the weekend hehehehehehe

had our first cricket practise last night - bit disappointed. There are too many guys in one team so not everyone gets a game each week. Not enough for two teams...too many for one. so bady sucks. So we are probably going to look for another local club.bit of a shame....but to get game time its definately worth gettin sorted.

Nothing else to report....looking forward to today and the weekend!!!!

Better go....i've just done my nails LOL....last night there was 3 power cuts..made doing nails very hard..esp when i left my torches at school for the school production last term hahahaha

HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND. will update when I get back..

2006-10-11T22:51:00.000+13:00

NOT AT THE BOTTOM OF THE LIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last week I joined a walking group and they post the results each week (to help you in your quest to bettering yourself....). Well because I did the smallest walk and I was the only walker for the smallest walk - being the slowest (COMPARED TO OTHERS WHO RAN - you can choose what you want to do) last week I WAS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE TIMED LIST OUT OF LIKE 50 SOMETHING PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!

This week I set a goal NOT TO BE ON THE BOTTOM OF THE LIST. So I didnt just do the next walk distance (4KM) up, I did the next one after that - 5.5km!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH BABY YEAH!!!

Cam and I walked around it....we kicked butt...cam reckoned we'd do it in just over and hour - WE DID IT IN 57MINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anddddddddddddddddddddddddddd FOR ONCE I OVER TOOK NOT JUST ONE PERSON LIKE THREE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!! Thats huge for me, I'm normally last!!!!!!!!!!

Very very happy with myself...AND I WONT BE ON THE BOTTOM OF THE LIST!!!!! And Cam won a spot prize this week - yay hehehehe he got some energy bars!!! So we're saving them for next week for our walk to see if we can energise ourselves and get under 55mins!!!!

Tonight the walk felt great!!! The walk last week was a real struggle...like i plodded - tonight I POWERED AROUND!!! I kept saying to cam "i feel good..i feel good..." lol...dork aye?!

ANDDDDDDD before we went down...we had a bit of cricket practise too!!! hehehe. I'M SOO IN LOVE WITH CRICKET AND WALKING OMG I LOVE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS!!!

CRICKET PRACTISE TOMORROW!!! WITH THE MEN!!! unfortunately its in my wwers meeting time, so I'm going to find out where another meeting is with that leader who takes it - because she is super cool...so i can still be inspired by her. I will try and get to the meeting tomorrow if i can..but i really want to do practise too. We'll see how we get on.

oooooooooo and just to get me all energy wise up...I'M ENTERING OUR SCHOOL INTO AN AEROBICS COMPETITION (the kids) but by me organising it...I'LL BE AWAY FROM FOOD TEMPTATIONS AT LUNCHTIMES ANDDDDDDDDD i'll be dancing around like a dork trying to get these kids looking awesome!!! goo me!!!!

THank you for your support from monday night. I was a complete mess the next day. Everyone noticed at work I was out of sorts and just assumed I was tired - I just let them think that. Didnt need to do the whole cry thing at work. We're ok and very thankful....of what could've/might've been.

NZERS - Whos been watching downsize me? OMG ISNT THAT MOTIVATIONAL OR WHAT?!

Funny for the day: A kid in class burped so another of my treasures said "you sound drunk" haha. funny if you know my kids (picture kids wearing some dirty clothes each day, barefeet and seen more of the world than we would ever care to imagine).

Righto its wayyyyyyyyyyyy past my bed time...

Womble: CONGRATS!!!
Shontie: LOVE THE SCAN!!!!!!!
Hayley: Thoughts with you and your whanau (family).

2006-10-09T21:44:00.000+13:00

O what a night...(second post of the day)

cam left his booties at home and had to walk the beach looking for scallops in barefeet (this sucks big time for anyone).

it rained.

there were bugger all scallops.

it poured.

it rained some more.

found some scallops.

it rained some more.

It was freezing.

got stopped my fisheries in the rain to check our load (not a big deal - guy was lovely).

it rained.

we drove the 40min drive home.

cam got a fright from my voice when I pointed out the dairy was open.

cam put the brakes on.

brakes locked.

van spun out of control one way.

cam tried to fix it.

van spun the other way.

van went on two wheels.

van was going full steam into a parked ute on the other side of the road.

the van stopped approximate 5cm from the ute.

i was in the passengers side staring at the ute with one arm on the door and the other grasping the roof.

it was still raining.

we stopped.

we cried.

we drove home in the pouring raining going half the speed the signs were telling us to go.

we cried some more.

we're going to bed now.

(we are very thankful, lucky and treasuring our time together in one piece...it could've so easily ended very differently.)

2006-10-09T17:41:00.000+13:00

feeling bleh.

good first day of school. good to see the kids.

weightloss...sometimes is it the only thing you think about?!

I have joined up this new programme. Its a weightloss exercise thingie for 8 weeks - to help lose weight. Its really good. A local company are using vibra train and then with support...etc getting the figures from your first day down...

today was my first day. The figures are BLEH. But not unexpected either. Its a start and I am exciteda bout the future on this programme with the combo of the wwers programme too.

Just bleh. LOL.

I have sore muscles from walking lots yesterday - after cricket practise I spent the avo walking in mud looking for scallops TWO HOURS later we had our quota.

We are going out tonight (in a mission to feed cams family this weekend) again. Hopefully not for two hours.

Better go get ready!!!

Will post more postively tomorrow.

Plan is to get up early and have a session at vibra train....yikes. as kate says "day by day".

2006-10-08T12:35:00.000+13:00

CRICKET ME!!!!!!!!

I am joining up to a cricket team. Unknown yet what team as someone is in the hunt for a team for me... a womens one as there is not a local one. I am veryyyyyyyyyyy excited. I havent played in years as I was always working on the weekends or helping dad. I SOOOOO CANT WAIT. Dad has given me $100 to spend on a birthday present (coz he never knows what to get me and giving me money is easy for him and me haha) so today I went out and brought CRICKET PADS AND GLOVES!!!!!!!!!!

hehehehe I'M SOOOOOOO EXCITED.

Cam and I are going down to the nets to test them out this avo.
SOOOOOOOO COOL.

bit scared. very unfit. But the only way is up/down. lol.

I've spent too many years wishing I could get back into it...but never been able to. I love cricket. Cricket and me are like peas and carrots.

Tomorrow is school. Have I done what I intended to over the holidays NO. am I worried? no. I am organised in my head, just not on paper. Mission tonight to get more organised...but I'm not too stressed.too busy being distracted by cricket stuff hehehehehehe

ooo we're getting scallops today. hehehe. We're getting them to take out to cam's family next weekend. SOOOOOOOO EXCITED. Everything is just exciting.

ooo and i did good. didnt buy diet coke in shoppping today. brought good meals to get me through the week. in the zone so to speak.

ok going now..very happy about cricket and next week (next weekend we're surprising cams family with cams long lost cousin...remember?!).

p.s yes police 10-7 is a tv programme...if you watch it look out for a green car or a red van LOL. i dont even know if its going to be on..lol.

UPDATE: cam and i went to the nets to practise and the local club president came up to me and asked if i was playing this year...and i said how there were no womens teams AND HE SAID I SHOULD PLAY WITH THE MEN IN THEIR CLUB!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And he invited cam too...SO THATS WHAT WE'RE GOING TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehehehehe I LOVVVVVVVVVVVVEEE CRICKET.

2006-10-07T08:45:00.000+13:00

The police car went racing past...then a mufty cop....ZOOOOOOOOOM...

nosey cam and car drove around trying to find where they went...
we went near the pub..the local hang out for drunk drivers...
police werent doing a blists there...
so we kept looking...turned down the road that my school is on...

two policemen with torches walking around...

weird?! we did the laps a few times trying to be nosey...
next lap...3 MORE POLICE CARS AND A PADDY WAGON OUTSIDE MY SCHOOL??!!!!

changed cars - coz we were looking suss....grabbed our next door neighbour who's a teacher there as well...by then more cop cars were around...and a line of policemen at our gate...WTF?!!!

Then driving around town, a police man has his search light on...AND IN THE FRONT SEAT WAS A CAMERA MAN ----- POLICE 10-7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kept doing the laps...paddy wagon and police eventually left...cop came up to me LOL...
said we were worried (aka nosey) teachers from the school...
youths had too much too drink and got out of control....all under control now...

went home...to hear A HELICOPTER CIRCLING OUR FINE TOWN...

then a police car searching up and down our street....cam snuck outside in his drunken state to save my NEW BIKE I BROUGHT YESTERDAY OFF TRADEME..so no dodgy person could steal it...

HELICOPTER KEPT CIRCLING...police on ground searching..and then lights werent on and they police car raced off....!!

thats it. Thats all I know. sooooooooooo want to know what really happened....!!!!!

Sooooooooooo going to be watching police 10-7 for the next few weeks!!!!!

Good night all round....drank DIET COKE ALLLLLLLLLLLL NIGHT at the pub. Cam had lots of beers....when we got home he said i did really well and then he said that he's probably off 82...and on to 84kg LOL. what a spaznuckle!!!!

2006-10-06T08:33:00.000+13:00

GAME ON.

Last night I was due to go to my meeting, but instead I let an a full on cry fest. I knew that if i went last night I would have to get on the scales and I couldnt. My nerves built up during the day to the point of feeling sick...cam came home and he wore it. I was grumpy at him over the STUPIDIEST things. Then he asked the question "are you going to your meeting tonight?"

KAAAAAAABOOMM!!!!

i lost it. I said I didnt want to because I would gain. Then spiraled into losing weight is useless....i'm a failure...being destined to be fat...cant drink or eat like anyone else...freak of nature..giving up...hate myself...blah blah blah. have ya been there?!

It was all on. There is something to be said for a good support at home. He just listened and hugged me when I let him (LOL see right madam i was)...we talked and talked. Then he turned around and had a (pretend) tanty about "ALWAYS BEING 82". Thats his weight and thats what he's been since a teenager...so he just copied what I did (minus the crying..and more of the funny side) and moaned about also being 82..how he hates it...never changes...permanent plateu...life sucks..the works. Hes quite the funny man my cam.

So after this big spill out. We decided to get real. There are more problems in the world, we're had a lot of them in the past. So why create this into a problem because we hate problems. We have decided its a lifestyle and we need to change it. Cam wants to get off 82 (he way of being included I think) and well we all know my issues LOL.

So last night we did lots of talking about changes we can make...and then we went ten pin bowling because we felt like doing something random. So we did. We had a bet on...loser had to pick dinner (because we find that a hard task) and winner got some bedroom rewards (HAHAHAHAHA). Yes well in true form once that bet was layed CAM HAD THE GAME OF HIS LIFE. wonder why?!

We had a good night, nice cam and car time. I felt emotional rung out. It was good though because cam came on board more. He already is. Hes wonderful but he could see where we suck and he's going hard too to help change our lifestyle.

Promptly before bedtime antics I got our my wwers jounral...remember this?! LOL. I think it had almost forgotten me. And I wrote in some quotes from a tv programme I watched (750 pound man- boy wasnt that a short sharp shock to lose weight!!!!) and then made a menu plan for my friday. Then tonight I will write in what I actually did...and write saturdays plan too.

I WILL GO TO WWERS NEXT WEEK. I am not giving up for the record. I just hit a hard curb last night. I know the meetings are good and I love my meeting...

Cam and I are going to spend the weekend, clearing out lots of poos around the house..get jobs we want done..DONE. And have fun together over the weekend...because school starts on monday then we have a few weekends away...so this weekend is cam and car weekend to just do stuff and be together.

SORRY FOR THE MUSHIE STUFF..THE MENTAL STUFF AND EVERY OTHER STUFF.
Just wanted to write down where I am at.

I didnt lose my mojo last night or yesterday. I still have it. I just emotionally melted down. But I'm ok. and I'm babbling so I will stop.

2006-10-04T21:39:00.000+13:00

FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MYYYYYYYY MOJOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Well I went to my walking group...I was packing myself man. Soo nervous. Didnt have my buddy in crime.....cam "had' to work. My dad didnt believe his story hahaha.

So anyways. I went. Talked to myself the whole drive there...saying "just do it" "you'll like it" "keep driving" lol.....so I did.

And I walked. I did the shortest route (you can pick from 5)...I really didnt know if I could manage the other ones without being the slowest and holding up the prize giving - which has been known to happen in the past!!!! Soo I did it....2.25km..in 27mins. I thought that was good for me. The unfortunate thing being faster than I thought..I had to wait around for prize giving...dum de dum. It was good actually because I got to see other people come in and there times to sort of gauge for me next week....SO NEXT WEEK I'M DOING THE 5.5KM WALK thats not the next one up..its the one after the next one...IMPRESSED?!! hehehe

SOO BACK TO MY MOJO. After each wednesday night walk there is a prize giving. I love prize givings...all the "ooo i hope I get that....". WEELLLLLLLLLLLLL....the major prize of the night was A SEASON PASS TO THE WALKING CLUB (wednesday night walks)...GUESS WHO WON IT??!!

MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEE!!!

GOOOOOOOOO ME!!!!

So excited. Is that a sign or what?!!! Trust me to get it.....miss out on all the yummy food and wine prizes...LOL. Its saved me a grand total of $120!!!! So I am very happy...and with the walk being soo good and then getting that prize...I SUDDENLY FOUND MY MOJO.

seriously. I dont quite know where it bounced from...but its here. I have been super good tonight. And tomorrow I am going to be too...I just feel it. YOU KNOW THAT FEELING.....as hayley says...when you're "in the zone". I so think i'm there...I'm soo excited.

Tomorrow will be planning central, getting ready for school....but as well as that I AM GOING WALKING.......!!!

i'm soo hypo its so much fun. VERY HAPPY! i've got my mojo with both hands and i'm not letting go!!!

2006-10-04T12:07:00.000+13:00

We went to the zoo..zoo...zoo...

yesterday. It was very very cool. At first it was very very very wet. But the weather was on our side for once and cleared away in the early afternoon.

I had heaps of fun taking random photos and gorking at the animals!!! LOTS OF WALKING!!!

My friend has left today. This morning. I am sad but am glad. I am happy we had a good time together but I am also glad I can get back to my regular routine. Shes a good friend but in terms of weight gain and loss stuff she really has no idea. Shes an awesome person who doesnt look at that sort of thing, shes not tiny either...it just is something she is not worried about as she is an active happy go lucky person. OOO to be that way..!!!

I have been out to the shops this morning...brought the last of my christmas shopping stuff (I KNOW GEEK AYE..but I am making them..so really I got the stuff I needed to make them...and will potter away at it over the next few months..so not a totally geek). ANDDDDD i also brought a black scrapbook album and black paper because I have decided to go hard with my photography. I am going to sign myself up for a course...and really get into it. There is a local camera club too, but I will wait until after doing a course before I hit that track.

Tonight I am joining a local walking club. I am only doing the small track today as Cam is away and my confidence is not there to try something bigger. I mean I would give it a go...but I am really really over being the last person and holding up things like prize givings. But its every wednesday night..and Cam will join me next week. So it is going to be a good time for us both to get out and enjoy the daylight savings light..!!!

oooooo BIG NEWS!!!!!!!!! We made front page of the local paper..hahaha in our green gremilin outfits..!!! There is a big article about the event we did...and our team in green galour is on the front page!!!!!!!! We didnt know it was going to be there..until last night when I got the paper out of the box hahahahaha.

Half a week left of school holidays. i will be spending most of it working..DOL. But today I am spending it catching up on stuff around the house and ME TIME...good chance while NOOOOOOO ONE IS HERE. My friend got me into doing my nails...so thats something I want to keep up...bets looking in the fridge aye?!

I have come to the realisation I suck at goals. I set a goal ages ago to lose 10kg by my birthday. This wont be happening as my birthday is next week. So my goal is to get back on track and be lighter than I am today..next week. Disappointing but I'm over it. Time to move on and down..!!!

Next week I am spending the weekend at Cam's parents place, as we have cams cousin coming up to surprise them and then the weekend...i'm doing the first trip to my dads new home in gisborne. I really just want to feel good about myself for more than just one reason. So this is my time to take control of that and JUST DO IT.

Kates list is such an awesome idea. I have hit the 50 mark. Going to write out the whole list first in my book then might put it on here...its exciting to start a list like that because you know its all about you and what you want. its not a list to get done for others or a boring list....hope that makes sense. lol. sorry if it doesnt.

going to stop babbling now and get my dosage of blog reading done for the day.

2006-10-02T17:40:00.000+13:00

SHOPPING....!!!!

i have been shopping!!! Just wanted to post photos...been shopping in dumb shops with clothes I dont fit. So I looked at accessories while my friend tried on clothes!!!!

Just another motivation to keep on track.....ALTHOUGH EXTREMELY DIFFICULT when someone is visiting whos not a weight plan..!!!!

As hayley says, dont stress too much...

trying hardddddddddddddddddddddd but very easy when you feel uncomfortable with ya size!!!

better go...seeya

2006-10-02T08:44:00.000+13:00

DAY ONE of the push play action programme. Anyone else doing it?

I am doing the walking programme. Looks like today the walk will be in the rain!!!

I have come to the realisation that having a visitor is hard on the weightloss efforts. HOWEVER if you hire out eyetoy 3...MAN WHAT A WORK OUT!!! Foodwise and visitors are really hard and I have realised that I am a reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll easily influenced.

Like when someone says "ooooooo i feel like cheesecake...." and goes and buys it....instead of me setting up a safety plan of getting a wwers pudding...i just wait till the cheesecake is open and eat it too. WELL THATS NOT GOING TO HELP THE WEIGHTLOSS IS IT?!!!

Ok need to go have a good healthy breakfast to energise me to start the day. MEAL BY MEAL. Look for the healthy options. remember goals. kick some serious butt. WHERE HAS THE SUMMER WEATHER GONE??????!

i'm not crazy. lol.

2006-10-01T08:48:00.000+13:00

I have started a list.

Kate started a list and is in the process of completing it....it was so inspirational..that I have started one for me to do - to get me to make the most out of my life. Anddddddd Cam and i have got one to do together too!!!!

I wont post it up until we and I have completed making our list. Very very cool.

It is a new month. the best month OCTOBER. I can not believe it is october already!!!!

I have goals for this month.

Walk 15km in Tauranga on 15th October.
Hit the 10kg mark.
Train for Triathlon (by being active DAILY).

I love daylight savings. Doesn't everyone?????!!!!

Last night I went to my aunties and she said I was looking well. Not sure what that means but I will take that and feel good about it.

Heading out to clarks beach again today to hopefully score scallops which will be cool...and to take more photos. I'm more the photos person...I suck at looking for scallops. Then my friend is coming back from a weekend in Auckland..so I'll be off entertaining her again for the next few days...not sure when i'll post again..but Wednesday at the latest...blogs keep me on task and motivated I really notice it when I'm not around them....maybe thats the geek coming out in me. there are some awesome achievements happening at the moment!!!! GOOOOOO YOU GUYS. better go, cam hanging around like a bad smell.

2006-09-30T16:11:00.000+12:00

Busy busy busy.....

Hello there, I have spent the last few days away....entertaining my friend who is up for the holidays!!!

I was a bit nervous about her coming because:

of overeating and going out lots.
no exercise involved.
out of exercise routine.

However...this has not been a problem MOST of the time. You see, I have choosen things to do that INVOLVE EXERCISE.

walking through 3 SHOPPING CENTRES in one day
walking up the manukau heads lighthouse
walking around the local town showing her the sights.

The only hiccup has been - THE LOCAL PUB LAST NIGHT!!! I have been drinking in ages...so I thought seeing as shes up I'll go hard. And I did. But it lead to numerous amounts of BEER being drunken, hot chips and wedges in front of me the whole night and then at the end of the night we got a feed of fish and chips as well. ON TOP OF THIS..i woke up with a wicked hangover and feeling bloated as from fish and chips and lots of beers. NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT GOOD. andddddddddd rather than exercising today, I slept because I was up most of the night....because CAMMMMMMMM WAS SNORNING AND SLEEP TALKING!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes I think drinking is a waste of time - it serves no purpose. but it is fun too. my challenge in my journey is to find a balance of drinking and working it in the programme. The first thing I am going to do is NOT DRINK BEER. I need to find another alternative. I think I might go back to my vodka lime and water trick....!!!!

BUT ON THE UP SIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i went to my wwers meeting. After 3 weeks of distractions and lets me honest avoidance as well....I WALKED IN THE DOORS AGAIN. I soooooo missed it. It was soo good to be surrounded by others in the same situation. My meetings rock. I am so never not going to go again. I did use my no weigh pass. But that doesnt matter I got my fix of healthy eating tips and motivations. One dude hit 25kgs, another hit 15kgs....just soo exciting.

I have two weeks until I walk 15km. Today is a right off as I have been sleeping all avo and now have to get ready to go out to my aunties for dinner. But starting tomorrow I am going to get some serious training done, I have been doing well all week however not really timed or the correct distance. But a few hours of day of walking - I'm impressed with!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND MY OTHER NEWS. I brought two hot new tops. Well I think they're hot. hot for a fat chick anyways - you know how there is often nana clothes for larger people. I found some non nana clothes. When my friend has gone i will spend sometime on here and update with more photos...etc. so you can see..lol.

really should go, more socialing awaits me. You'll be pleased to know I'm not drinking tonight. I did the sensible thing and volunteered for be sober driver.

14pk over and out. (for another few days)

2006-09-27T07:43:00.000+12:00

MORE PHOTOS!!! AND EXERCISE!!!!

Yesterday Cam and I ventured out to clarks beach - just because. Took some photos, looked for scallops, saw some crabs, found some starfish, talked to cam, walked around lots 1 hour later...photos and sore legs all round!!!

I love the seaguls on the posts photos!!!! Its almost like they were posing hahahahaha!!!

So after my walk I came home, cam made dinner (homemade pizzas) and I pottered with my new hobbie taking photos...!!! Then after dinner we watched downsize me...WHAT MOTIVATION. i promptly got on my bike and did 60MINS!!!! IMPRESSED??? i was. My bum wasnt. That chocolate then was officially gone....I sat on it cycling and abusing the chocolate..saying its soo not worth it. it was empowering!!!!

Today I am busy making my spare bed up for a friend coming to stay, paying off bills and getting insurance..and a spot of shopping in there for good measure..OOO AND I'M GOING INTO TOWN (i mean a big city lol) and there is a shop that has yummmmm sushi GUESS WHAT I'M HAVING FOR LUNCH...!! YUM YUM!!!!

updates not sure when they will happen as my computer is in the spare room with my friends bed. And this isnt something I share with people...so ummm i'll update when I can over the next week!!! have a good one...enjoy the photos...

FROM A VERY MOTIVATED CHICKEE AT PRESENT. Going to wwers meeting tomorrow, probably wont weighin..just need to get back into the routine.!!!

Have a good Wednesday!!!!

2006-09-26T14:46:00.000+12:00

More photos...
and another update for today...

been for a walk (1 hour)...

took some more photos...

had lunch with cam...

received an unexpected present from an unexpected person, for no particular reason so i scoffed the whole box of chocolates (emotional eating identified)...

going to rectify the situation by heading out to a place where cam and i want to marry (to get motivated and walk around to work of the box i just ate...)...

will take some more photos...photos are fun!!!

seeya...

2006-09-26T09:07:00.000+12:00

Walking through Waiuku...

(this first photo is of a random bunch of flowers in someones garden on my street i live on..LOL photo doesnt do it justice at all!)

Yesterday the weather got to me...it got to me so much I grabbed my camera and my ipod and went walking!!!!! 2 hours later (few stops on the way to school, the bank and the post shop) I arrived home with a few photos. Here they are for your viewing...and I'm going to do the same thing again today!!!!

(This second photo is my second home during the school term, its our local...its fair to share we have a common bond together - alcohol).

THEN last night, we needed something from the shop and cam asked if I wanted to go with him and I said "Yes, would you like to walk down?" There in a very tired voice he agreed. LOL GOTTA LOVE HIM. He's so supportive, did I meantion he's sick with a cold at the moment?!

We had an enjoyable walk, babbling away to each other about different things...it was even slightly romantic with out the lovey dovey stuff LOL.

(This is a photo of our local steam/river that runs through our town connected to the big ocean on the west coast and manukau harbour....very green...lol)

I attempted to make my own sushi yesterday. I have had this sudden love for it. So I thought I'd try and make it. There is a reason why cam is the cook and I am the cleaner. Mine was a horrible mess...Cam had a go when he got home after saying "now if i make this I'm not doing it to show you, you cant cook...I just want to support you" LOL. Yes well, let me tell you there is approx 10 sushi pieces in the fridge awaiting me to scoff at some point over this week. enough said.

This photo is the view from my driveway!!! beautiful aye?! Only disappointing part is our house is high above the water - we have no access to the water from the end of our street...such a shame!!!

Today I have no major plans apart from just getting organised for my friend who arrives tomorrow from wellington and start some school stuff so I am ready to go for next term!!!!
OO AND TAKE MORE PHOTOS...hehe

And here is my favourite of the bunch...a random flower...and you know when cam and i walked past it last night it was closed up and sleeping...!! so wish I took my camera last night hahaha..

Thats all folks...I thought I was so clever doing two walks and then I read some blogs and it looks likes LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE BEEN in the exercise mood...some even done 3 lots yesterday!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PEOPLE!!!

2006-09-25T14:45:00.000+12:00

Photos from our day....yesterday!!!
Very sore today!!!!!!

Walked to the shop today...felt EVERY MUSCLE IN MY BODY!!!!!

tried to be healthy and make sushi - total disaster. Need lots of practise!!
Lucky I've got two weeks to practise!!!!

Going to find something to eat for lunch....at 3.45pm...after waiting for hours for my sushi...gotta laugh aye?!! haha.

2006-09-24T18:02:00.000+12:00

We came SECOND!!!!!!!!!!

We had such an awesome day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was just like the amazing race...sooooooo much fun....soooooooooooo much running.....soooo not fun...but it got my butt moving...!!! We were coming 11th/10th/9th most of the way - lots of fitness stuff slowed me down..but then at the end it all relied on who can find our team name in the stand!!!!!!!!!

WE COULD!!!

We didnt know we were so close....and I had to run my butt off to the finish line because the third placers were right on my tail!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOO EXCITING!!!

Our team scored a hundred bucks for our efforts...and cam scored a one months gym membership as a spot prize!!!! Soooo much fun and soo cool!!!! Cam is keen for both of us to go to the gym together seeing as its free/cheap for us to go with this spot prize..yay. hehe

Cam's asleep in bed, I'm too hyped hahahaha...!!!

I really need a shower, have a lot of green paint on my face that needs to come off!!! Took some cool photos, will put them up tomorrow when I go to school to get the cables I need!!!

Just wanted to report in, VERY COOL DAY!!! sooooooooooo hyped and sooooooo going to enter more of those events!!!! (p.s our team were the green gremlins!!!)

2006-09-23T10:17:00.000+12:00

MAN. I feel like a WOMAN.
got to love ya monthly duties as a woman. today i'm feeling it. LOL.

to all teachers out there: YAY ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!!

Omg. I have just seen the melbourne bloggers xmas party on hayleys site. SOOOOOOO JEALOUS.

So tomorrow I'm doing a random fun thing. DASH THE DISTRICT: Its like a car rally and our team is dressing up as green gremilins!! Its going to be fun!!!! If you look on that website, cam and i are also going to do the stride it out thing and i'm going to do the shaping up challenge!!!! Some cool things to get me active and back on track!!!

SOOO LAST NIGHT..i went to my cam's hockey prize giving and I walk in the door and the wwers leader is there...she's not only there she is apart of the hockey committee so during the prize giving she was talking...so i couldnt not avoid looking at her..lol...she didnt talk to me and i didnt make an effort either...i just said there thinking..ok if this isnt a hint...then what is LOL..guess what i'm doing next thursday!???!!! yup. going to my meeting.

ooooooooo and...you know the friends show, the episode where chandler and monika keep getting signs to get married. well cam and i are constantly living that episode. so not kidding. There is a local bride of the year competition and the winner was "mrs _______" when I get married that will be my name. And my reading recovery teacher - well for some random reason (we get on really well)has decided to become a celebrant. LOL. And she said "when you and cam getting married, i'll do you guys for free.." haha. I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING. And one of my kids randomly asked when I was getting married the other day. And other things..but they're the things that make me laugh at the minute!! we're not getting married...i'll let you know when we do..few things to work on first LOL.

so my skin infection. SO NOT GOING AWAY. medience arnt doing poos. going back this week. when i have my smear BECAUSE apparently i'm overdue. LOL. DOL!

Thats all I have to say today. lol. random post that was.

2006-09-20T16:51:00.000+12:00

MYSTERY SOLVED!!!!!!!!!

No chicken pox here. One big fat skin infection.
$120 later...and a good course of antibiotics and flash shampoo stuff....the mystery is solved.
Cause? working with children. well one particular child - which has actually worked out well because now an urgent referral can be done for that child as I have now been infected. So although it sucks, this child can now get the urgent help now without having to wait for his mum to do it - because it just wasnt happening.

AHHH the life of a teacher, first year of teaching and so far with all my problems in my room - my degree has not been worth one little bit LOL.

On a different note, I am fat and feeling it. This weather is great but just a constant reminder of what I'm not (skinny). SO I HAVE A DAYLIGHT SAVINGS PLANNNNN!!! at night I will be cycling, in the mornings I will be walking....cam and i are swapping sides on the bed...and at night I am having one curtain open so i wake up to the beautiful daylight....cam brought my bedside cabinets home tonight and I am going to decorate them...and in them will be myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy weightwatchers nightly readings.......anddddddddddd thats just it. I am just doing it.

I am going to weighin tomorrow night. using my no weigh pass. I need to go. Just so not going to weigh. cant face that. just need to get my feet in the door. so thats what i'm doing.

just in time really, HOLIDAYS AREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE SO CLOSE...bring on TIME FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-16T19:58:00.000+12:00

WARNING: OVERSHARE!!!
Call all doctors...nurses..and people who might know...
WHAT IS THIS??????????????????

They are incredibly ichy...LIKE ALL THE TIME.
I have them in random places...EVEN ON MY RIGHT NIPPLE (TWO OF THEM!!!)
I have approximately 25-30 of them and each day more are appearing...on my back, boobs, crease of my undies (sorry), thigh, calves, THUMB (random), think i have one in my hair too..

I have had chicken pox before, according to my dad. As this is going around school so I needed to investigate that asap. I know what scabbies is, had that before LOL its not that now. And they're definatley not spider bites...or some little bug seems to be loving me!!! I've had spider bites before, dont think its that either. I do intend to go to the dr on monday if they continue to a. grow lots more and b. keep being ichy.

On top of that I have a massive head problem LOL...not like a headache...but just a cloggy up feeling, almost like there is a tonne of bricks on top...

and i have this scabbie thing in my nose, and one snot nose that is keeping me entertained - so to speak.

Yes I am aware it is my body saying ENOUGH. lol. lucky the production is over and the holidays are one week away!!!

On the upside: I tried sushi today and liked it and cam brought me some flowers on friday. hehe just to say "good job" for everything i've done this term at school...between lots of new (naughty) boys starting and production and the recent discovery of FIVE lunchbox thiefs in my class...its definatley been an interesting term.

I am a lucky woman...not the most attractive one either at present for a few reasons lol.

2006-09-15T17:05:00.000+12:00

what a week.

exciting.
crazy.
kids.
proud.
tired.
drunk.
exhausting.
ongoing.
fun.
dancing.
cute.
frustrating.
mental.
loud.
quiet.
tonedeaf.
posers.
heartbreaking.

EVERYTHING.

A week of production. Never had such an experience. Cant wait for next year!! haha. So exhausted. The chldren have fun, the parents lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvved it.

Me time is what I need. this weekend I am sorting our my classroom and house..and getting back on track. haven tbeen totally off track..but not good either...so its just time to get that motor running and head out on the highway...look for adventure... LOL.

Going to search for a bike this weekend, for my triathlon. A cheap but good thing to get my training kicking butt!!!

1 month yesterday until my 26th GOOD GOD. lol. what is scarier, i'm walking 15km this time in a month orrrrrrrrr i'm getting older lol. i remember when i was 21 and thought i was old. now i love life more and...well i'm older. dont know my point.

i'm tired. i'll go now. lol.

2006-09-12T17:32:00.000+12:00

Tired. Thankful. Tracking.

Tired.
We were up early this morning. There were really good cheap deals with an airline today so we got our credit card working and booked flights from chch to auckland!! Not for us, Cam's cousin. He has been missing from the family for a long time. Some people havent seen him in over 17 YEARS. But Cam and I found him!!!! And next month some rellies are coming over from australia...so we hooked up tickets for cams cousin for next month while they're all over here. NEXT PART OF THE STORY..its a surpriseeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehe so cant wait!!!! fortunately/unfortunately it is all happening my birthday weekend as its the only weekend we could plan it all for, so I have had to move my walk to a closer destination (tauranga instead of auckland. still determined to do it).

Thankful.
I am very very thankful for all you messages of support. Definately dont feel alone in the world of weightloss and blogs. Its crazy to think when you're down and out..and feel like you're doing silly things that infact others have been there and done that. not crazy...but probably more reassuring...My point. THANK YOU. Its nice to have so many people around, in teh blog world...that some of us dont have in our lives (or choose not to share that side of ya life with supposed 'real' life friends. lol you know what i mean.) And yes, I am very very lucky to have cam in my life. I am very loved and being overweight and unhappy with myself I really dont give him alot of credit...because I tend to take my moods out on him....i'll make up for it when i'm skinny *wink wink*

Tracking.
Back to get serious. I have one month until I want to complete my 15km walk. I have one month until my birthday. I have one month to knock off my next 5kg. Today I was good. Stuck to my meals. Tonight I am going to record it all in my diary I have..ooooooooo And this avo I was hungry so I went to the roast shop and got me some roast spuds to have as a snack. Beats hot chips aye?! Tonight I was so just too exhausted to walk. The production is soooooo nearly over and so is my body. There is only so much dancer organising, yelling people to shh up and music not playing when i should be i can take LOL. But I AM getting up early!!! And sticking to my food. Tonight I have brought NOOOOOOOOO work home with me. I am going to workout a plan of attack for the next month...and thats all i'm going to focus on.

On a different note. Cam and I have joined....bank accounts. We have been humming and haring for ages....we have nevered needed to join in the 4 years we have been together. But we worked out some good plans and goals and to managed our money effectively and honestly we are going to combine. We have watched many many many couples lose it over joint accounts..however we have taken that all in and have a back up plan, we also have a well thought out budget, with savings and all debts being covered...with extra!!! AND we have our own money - like pocket money but if anyone watched the MONEYMAN..its called saniety money (our own money to play with how we choose..). Very different for us. We dont have anything together lol. So its a huge step for us LOL.

Thats all from today folks.

2006-09-11T18:44:00.000+12:00

Admitted the addiction.

Last night I melted down........after I went to the service station to pick up our laundry (drying facilities there), and i couldnt not do it...i talked to myself the whole way down..."just get the clothes and go..just get the clothes and go.."

I got the clothes...got a chocolate bar..and there was a two for one deal...he was a good salesmen...so i got TWO for one.. I promptly had no idea what to do with them. I couldnt show cam. So I ate one soooooooo fast (we only live 3 blocks away), then I tried to eat another..couldnt. I did do half though. Then I snuck the rest into my pocket. I was going to leave it on the car but thought I might forget about till tomorrow and get caught out. so I spent the next hour thinking of a way to hide this chocolate bar without being suss.

In the end I started crying in ashame. I was crying for two reasons...I have had a few friends get biten by the one eyed pants snake (bun in the oven, up the duff...etc) and they are/were weightloss people in my life...well i suddenly felt very alone...so then I got so overwhelmed I couldnt hide it.

I just let it all out to cam. EVERYTHING. I told him in a nut shell "I have a problem" and I promptly got out my chocolate bar.

I am so ashamed. And no its just not the chocolate bar there were little bits and pieces here and there all weekend. I had to go to the supermarket more than once alone..and I couldnt buy something extra for me, somettimes lots of extras. It is gross and it is pathetic.

Cam and I have a deal, I go with him or not at all until I get myself in control. If I had an alcohol problem it would be simple, just dont drink. Eating problem..makes life very testing.

At the moment I am failing the test. But I am not quiting.

(meal by meal, day by day....think thats all i need to concentrate on at the moment. god i sound so pathetic...but its true.thats what its come to...I have no where else to write this down or feel to ashamed to share with anyone...thanks for listening..sorry for the overshared)

2006-09-09T11:03:00.000+12:00

My bum is sore...from having a few feet up it giving me a kick. hahaha...

thank you for the support and motivation..cam in turn has done the same thing.

I havent gained that much, got myself on the scales 600g (not on my ticker..it was an unofficial weighin at home this morning). So now it is time to correct it. It is a big gain...but its managable..if it was over a kg I think I would've lost the plot. But its all good...full steam ahead for a good week.

It amazing how your brain can be your worse enemy sometimes by over thinking and other times be the most effective tool in your journey..its all about reading the signals and getting perspective aye?!

I have had a good sleep in today, what I needed after a week of running around after little children and a production. Next week it is going to be crazy but most of the hard work and organising is done!!! I have 5 weeks to lose another 4.6kgs to achieve my goal by my birthday...I can do it..so I am going to.

BRING IT ON.

Just wanted to report in..I am here. I am losing weight.

2006-09-07T21:15:00.000+12:00

AWOL.

i have been secretly awol.

the curse has hit me!!! 5kg mark curse....HIT ME!!

MOJO GONE. FOOD POO. EXERCISE POO.

I am determined to overcome this curse.

I have avoided my meeting tonight, which sucks because i like my meeting. But I just couldnt face it.

so instead. MY PLAN WAS..to sort my surrounds out...and get better sorted...BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO one trip to the supermarket...

one pie....two mini pizzas..big packet of chicken chips...chocolate lollies...

I feel sick and worse.

It cracks me up, I feel great when i'm in control..getting up early exercising and eating really good food....work kicks in full steam with school production and i start sleeping in...avoiding breakfast...buying fatty lunches...having ok dinners but snacking on poooooooo and of course "i dont have time to exercise" WHAT A JOKE.

Very easy to loose perspectve and motivation when one thing clinks it aye?!

My moto. ONE DAY. one day at a time. That is the only way I can look at it. ONE DAY.

The days are getting lighter and I need and want to get back into walking...I want to walk 15kms on the 15th October....So I need to get off my butt.

I also want/need to be skinny for xmas...I dont want another fat xmas...especially with the exciting plans we have got!!!!!

One more week of crazy production stuff. 2 more weeks of school. I want to hit 10kg for my birthday. I AM GOING TO HIT THE 10KG MARK ON MY BIRTHDAY.

thats it.

there is no other option. ONE DAY. THATS ALL..JUST ONE DAY AT A TIME.

2006-09-05T21:24:00.000+12:00

12 little munchkin hats completed
and 3 ghostbuster packs painted...hahaha..!!! gotta love school productions...!!!

oooooooo and one application for insurance completed...!!!

and one application for cam and i to get a weekend job....so wont say anything until I know more details..but think cam and i..think crazy stupid and "trust c&c.." lol..and then you'll sort of have a ball park idea what job we've applied for...

..its to get us regular income to pay off our debts, and get our wedding and house plans underway...

sounds very adult doesnt it?!

MONEY MAN HAS FINISHED...I cant believe it. But in its place is DOWNSIZE ME...lol

"worked on our wallets.....now the next programme will help our waistline.."

foodwise ooooooooooooooookkkkkkkkkkkk could be better...so easy to not be on to it when too much is on and quiet honest...cant be bothered...but NO BINGE FROM ME...just plodding along...

6 weeks till my 15km walk...COME ON MISS 14PK....

2006-09-04T06:43:00.000+12:00

Weekend of cleaning and poo food....

but its a new week and i'm focused. I want my 6.3kg stone!!!!

Went ice skating yesterday and on friday I went for a walk - does wonders when ya pooey at ya boyfriend...

cleaned up my classroom all saturday....
cleaned the house on sunday and my car...

feel a bit more better and organised...going to school early to get some more stuff done...so i'm a good teacher not just a floater because at the moment i'm floatingggggggggggggggggggg.

so have to go...

have a good monday.

2006-08-31T20:49:00.000+12:00

OH MY GOD! SHUT UP! was one reply
WOO WOO OH YEAH WHO THE BOMB
WHO THE BOMB YEAH YEAH YOU THE BOMB was the other reply...

ON MY PHONE AFTER I TEXTED HAYLEY AND CAM MY WEIGHIN REPORT....

700 gram loss...!!!!!!!!!!

I should be on rove WHAT THE?!

I have got away with that one this week...didnt like the feeling i had before i get on the scales..dont want a repeat.

Changes I have noticed:
When i binge I dont eat as much
I have lost weight 5 weeks in a row
I need new pants
When I want to over eat its 9/10 on healthy food
I dont like fatty foods
I have a new lifestyle
I am making friends at MY WWERS MEETING..this is big for me.
I look forward to meetings.
I am getting skinny.
Going backwards is not an option.
I looked at a lady my size eating a pie and v for breakfast and felt sick.
I eat more than 5 servings of fruit and veges per day.
I am enjoying life...even when it is heart breaking.

Only the blog world and my man knows I'm on a weightloss diet. No one has done the 'notice' yet. But I dont think that will happen until I go visiting my family at the end of october. WHEN I PLAN TO BE PAST MY 10KG MARK!!!

Gooooooooooooooo me!!!

2006-08-31T06:49:00.000+12:00

POOOOOOOOOOOO ON TOAST.

Thats this week in a nut shell.

Weighin in tonight.
NOt looking forward to it one bit.

It will be a gain. No idea how much. Dont care. Going for my own sake to get back on track.

This week has been mentally emotionally and PHYISCALLY draining at work...actually just with one child.

Sad story. not going to get into it. But lets just say he's had a rough start in life and my class gets to deal with it. heart breaking and fist breaking all at one go.

GOING TO SHOP TO GET FRUIT. Eating that all day. Will report in tonight.

I am losing weight. Just not this week.

2006-08-29T18:42:00.000+12:00

18 weeks till Christmas. I feel sick.

Literally sick.
Where has the year gone.

I have 18 weeks to work my butt off. This summer I want to be the skinnest I have been in years.

This week I have been eating bad. NO MISSY MOO NO. Not anymore. The weather is getting better so I have no more excuses.

I have signed up to my walk and triathlon so now I have to put the work in.

Cam is good he signed a contract last night. It was titled " where is my mojo?" I wrote a contract for cam to help me find it by exercising with me this week....hehe...

He is so good to me. I wanted to eat. He went and cooked dinner. Now I am online avoiding eating by typing...hehehe. I am hungry.

Last week in the meetings it talked about how at times we need to KNOW when we need support and to USE IT. I am lucky to have cam, I told him after the meeting...and I said "I'm going to use you.." didnt realise it would be so soon hahaha...

Poo week. Poo loss I am thinking...if any loss at all. It is just so easy to fall back into bad habits isnt it??? Why are good habits hard to maintain and bad ones..are just so easy and naughty!!!

thank you hayley for teh 18 week reminder. I really really really need to get myself sorted and losing weight. My goal is to make my ring glitter in peoples eyes at christmas time!!!!

Time to get moving..!! HERE I COME BIKE.

this is my 18 WEEK COMMITMENT CONTRACT. right here and now.

I HEREBY OFFICIALLY COMMIT TO THE NEXT 18 WEEKS OF LOSING WEIGHT. I INTEND TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BE AT 100KG AT CHRISTMAS. I MISS 14PK WILL BUST MY BUTT and even though some weeks I might suck I WILL STILL GET MY BUTT TO MEETINGS AND COMMIT TO MY WEIGHTLOSS BECAUSE I WANT THIS!!!!!!!!.

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT. no. I AM LOSING WEIGHT.

2006-08-27T15:47:00.000+12:00

Dumb photos wont work.

Wanted to show you my new invention...PACKED LUNCHES!! LOL.

i have been baking...out of no count recipes - corn bread and damper bread. Made 10 of each, One for both cam and i for lunches each day. I have put them into little bags and loaded up the freezer!!! GOOOOOOOOO ME!!!!!

So should be working..but doing some good avoiding..

So far today, I"ve cleaned the house, baked some stuff for lunches...and planted a flower garden!!! HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!! Cam and I have decided to dabble in the art or gardening. My father is a proud gardener..and we thought we better do something..just to keep the growing going....Cam is making a vege garden..and iiiiiiii made a flower garden. I have got some blue flowers and some pink flowers and some SUN flowers!!!!!!!!!

Thats all from me today. Sooooooooo want something yummy from the shop..but want to be good...trying to think what I can combine...so I dont feel yucky afterwards...hmmmm.

Need to get on with my work....another week tomorrow..and Miss 14pk is very not organised.

2006-08-26T09:17:00.000+12:00

Officially HAYLEY LOZZ BIGGEST LOSER COMPETITION...RESULTS...

Last saturday I weighed in at 119.2.
This saturday I am 118.4 (LOST 400G SINCE THURSDAY NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE).

Total biggest loser lose...800g...

NOTHING COMPARED TO LOZZ..you go girl!!!
Still waiting for hayley to wake up to see who is the official winner!! hehe

I have just realised I started my weight loss programme in the first week of august, its the end of august and I am 5kgs lighter...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so so so happy. The next 5kg is the hardest BUT I am so determined. i WILL BE 10kg lighters by my birthday (14 October). NO QUESTIONS.

Lozz and Hayley, you up for another round this week of the biggest loser???

2006-08-24T19:44:00.000+12:00

CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

400G LOSS.....5KG LOSS IN TOTAL EXACTLY!!!!!!

Tonight I'm going to do my measurements....hopefully see something good!!!!!!!!!

p.s 25CM DOWN!!!!!!!!! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

2006-08-24T17:00:00.000+12:00

OooOOOOOOoooOOOO

I HAVE NOTICED SOME CHANGES...

my pants almost fell down in a cross country run today ( i was running to help a slow-ee not burst into tears and finish.. and i had to let the little sausage bet me before i flashed all the parents who came to watch..haha)

i forgot about weighin, not because i binged but because its A NEW LIFESTYLE that i'm loving!! How cool is that? I have surprised myself...never thought about it like that before.

I am happy. I am in control. I know what I am doing. Everything is working and I am just having the time of my life...weightwatchers wise, teaching wise, relationship wise....compared to last year I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLD...and yet there is so much more to see and do!!!

weighin tonight....BRING ON THAT 5KG BOOKMARK. I am 400g short....soooooooooooooooooooo hopefully i've managed that this week!!!!!!!

2006-08-23T17:10:00.000+12:00

LOOK WHAT I GOT!!!!!!!!!!

Yup yup yah ha...thats right AAAAAA COMMONWEALTH MEDAL!!!!!!!!!!

All the way from Melbourne!!!!!!!!!!!

I got if for organising some stuff for the kids to 'enhance our current commonwealth learning' LOL!! BARF!!!

the kids loved it..and so did their teacher hehehe.

NOTHING TO REPORT!!! apart from i rock and am losing weight...all i can say to my fello competitors is 'BRING IT' HAHAHAHA

going to ice skating tonight...better go...seeya...just wanted to share my exciting news.

2006-08-21T18:40:00.000+12:00

On a mission.

Thats right. The BIGGEST LOSER MISSION.
I have two challenges going. One is to kick hayley and lozz's butt this week to score some good aussie presents!!! The other is on the official WWers website!!!

soooooo pumped!!

walked 30mins at the beach!! And just completed my 200 step ups!!!

had an awesome day at work....although thought i was organised until I 'colourful' new kid started today...makes life interesting doesnt it..never can be on top of ya game even if ya try hahaha

right dinners ready (THANKS CAM)!!!

2006-08-20T21:41:00.000+12:00

I am going to be organised this week.
I am going to beat lozz and hayley in the biggest loser challenge. (119.2 ladies)
I am going to get up at 6am each morning to exercise.
I am going to start my training for the triathlon by walking along the beach 3 nights this week.
I am going to ice skating classes with cam this week HEHEHEHEHE.
I am going to have a successful week after hitting a yukky place over the weekend.
I am looking foward, not backwards.
I am going to achieve my goals.
I am going to be happy.
I am going to make a difference to my students learning this week.
I am going make lifestyle changes, I am not on a diet.
I am going to live like there is no tomorrow...and love like it is everlasting.
I am going to be me.
I am going to be successful.

2006-08-18T18:47:00.000+12:00

I HAVE SIGNED UP.

FOR THE SUN LATTE TRIATHLON SERIES.

i have said it before BUT THIS TIME I MEAN IT!!!

The walk part of the event is the day after my birthday and i think thats a really good way to start my 26th year!!

So I am doing it.

And i have another celebration. Tonight the staff all went to the pub....and so did I. AND I DRANK DIET COKES..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Go me!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow I am going to start my training for my triathlon!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-17T21:10:00.000+12:00

900g baby!!!!!!
120s can kiss my a###!!!!
I'm a teens girl now!!!!!

unfortuately i was 400g short of my bookmark DOL!!! But next week its going to be me getting the big claps...not just others!!!!!!!!!

just had the board meeting..went well!!! had lots of fun!!! i went bright red, stuffed up my power point but made everyone laugh!!! GOOOOOOO MEEEE!!!

I have nothing else really to say..hahaha. FRIDAY TOMORROW YAY!!!!

2006-08-17T07:18:00.000+12:00

WEIGH IN DAY....eek.

going good until yesterday. omg. courses suck.

QUESTION: how do people deal with getting shared lunches unexpectedly???? I crumble...i saw food and ate it.....

then last night we went out for a meeting thingie (to make new friends LOL) AND we were running late so we didnt have dinner until 10pm.
This sooooooo restricted our food choices, we went with wendys but that still wasnt good. so weighin.. not totally looking forward to it now...

on the up side the course yesterday was dance..so guess what i was doing all day LOL. i was a total dork it was heaps of fun!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe

righto must go get ready for work, poor cam is staying home sick today he's just got worse and worse i did the good wifey thing in the middle of the night and got cough medicine for him LOL

wish i was staying home. no actually coz i'll probably eat LOL.

right GOING NOW will report in after meeting....i have wwers meeting then a BOARD presenation tonight YIKES.

ok seeya.

2006-08-15T19:59:00.001+12:00

BEFORE....

AFTER...

Now somewhere in the middle it is meant to look like a vege friatta..sorry cant spell..

cant really keep a fritter thingie in one piece hahaa....

but i had fun.

this is a result of me home alone, Cam is away for work. As much as i love him around..this time alone is good too. I've been shopping, cooked my dinner read the local newspaper done some work...about to go watch money man...time alone is probably what i've been craving and not realise..very cool.

last nights dinner. disaster..not foodwise...relationship wise..we soon learn how ANAL cam is about his kitchen...I of course managed to point this out to him..haha.. GOO ME.

in control. kicking butt. loving it. having fun. gotta go watch money man. REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING WHAT THE SCALES SAY ON THURSDAY.

me looking forward to a weighin?? I SHOULD BE ON ROVE LIVE IN THE "what the?" section.

seeya..

2006-08-14T18:21:00.000+12:00

20mins cycle done. 8.7km achieved and
I AM COOKING DINNER TONIGHT.

If you know me, you'll know this is RARE. Cam the man is the cook in our house. I'm the cleaner. I tend to forget about cooking and let it burn..not tonight. Its my mission HAHAH.

Poor cam is sick and normally even when he's sick he cooks but TONIGHT I'M THE MAN OF THE HOUSE...hehe. i'm going to let him sleep and experiment with some recipes...

I did yesterday although that was bad. I made custard and jam cookies (wwers recipes) very yummy...BIT MOREEEEEEEEEEERISH. When I get time I'll put the recipe up - but they're more for a good treat to take somewhere i reckon....

ok soooooo going to cook dinner!!! This girl is on a mission to have dinner done, and work done all before 9pm to lie in bed and watch ER and GREYS ANATOMY (OMG THATS GOING TO BE GOOD TONIGHT!!) then drift to sleep...

OK GOING NOW...had a good day...some little twirp set our school on fire, tried to do the toilets..didnt work so went into the flax bush..everyone ok..school fine...kids loved seeing the fire engine...bet that little boy has a sore bum tonight though...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEEYA!!

2006-08-12T12:40:00.000+12:00

DECISIONS DECISIONS...

So the past few days cam and i have been busy busy making decisions...decisions suck but its good to be a in a position to make decisions aye?!! Last year the decisions were which bill is better to pay before getting it power or phone cut off...LOL...now its when to go overseas and when to buy a house!!!

It all started when I was talking to my boss about applying for leave to go overseas..anyways we were on his mind on his drive home from work that night..and on friday morning he came to see me (thinking it was bout school stuff..but nooooo). he wanted to put some options on the table for me to think about it. Cam and I were frustrated (at the thought of changing our plans and having to be grown ups and make a decision) but stoked that someone would take the time to think about us and our best interests..blah blah...cut very long story short...

orginal plan was to go overseas after I get my registration....2008. Well thats what has changed. Instead we are going to put a deposit together for a property to have as an investment..set it up with tenants in it, get married and in 2009 go overseas will the property paying for itself. Nothing really has changed we still want to get hitched in the beginning of 2008...just rather than go overseas then..wait a year. So when we come back we have a property to move into or sell...probably sell.

Kinda sounds grown up aye?! We are happy with that, bit guttered about putting the overseas thing on hold but worth it in the end and we will be better off for our future...

SOOOOOOOO the orginal plan was to get a a laptop and digital camcorder for our overseas trip. Well that changed haha..with consideration to our new plans and the fact our fridge would last us another year if we were lucky...we decided instead of a laptop to get a newwwwwwwwww fridge hehe...and cam still wanted his dvd so we got that..boys. haha. anddddddddddd SOMETHING FOR MEEEEEEEEEE a george foreman STEAMER!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehe

NOW WE ARE SORTED!!! HAPPY!!! AND SAVING!!!! AND TURNING SKINNY!!!!

Doing so well with my programme...book is going well sticking to the plan...lol its like its a new thing...sticking to a plan works??!! WHO KNEW!! sooooooooooo want my 5kg bookmark on thursday!!!!!!! Only thing stopping me is me...so i'm not stopping me..ok??!! OK!! HAHA.

right, cam is away for the afternoon playing hockey...I have got the next 6-7 hours to myself...plans...GOING TO GO TO THE BEACH FOR A WALK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well lunch first, going to the NEW SUBWAY WE HAVE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST ARRIVED THIS WEEK....HEHE then come home and do some work...and jjust lax out...YAY!!!!!!!!!!

life is good. I'M GETTING SKINNY!!! But thats not why life is good...just everything is good..and that really is the cherry on top...ACTUALLY ITS MORE LIKE A THOUSAND CHERRIES ON TOP!! i hate cherries..ooooooo STRAWBERRIES..ITS LIKE STRAWBERRIES ON TOP!!!

have a good weekend....and do something for you..coz you matter. we matter people.

PINK IS FOR ME HAHAHA

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

i have just been to the beach for a walk!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-10T19:53:00.000+12:00

CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not just a loss....A HUGE LOSS....A HUGE UNEXPECTED LOSS!!!!!!!!!!!

the lady said 'o would you look at that...WOW..." and couldnt see when i did....woops the whole meeting turned at looked...my words were...

IT WORKS!!!!!!! YAY hahaha

When I sat down the leader came up to me and gave me secret congrats!! Very very happy...

OO AND IF YOU CANT READ IT................

3.6KG BABY!!!!!! THREE POINT SIX!!!!!!!!!!

Goal for this week: WALK 10,000 STEPS A DAY AND GET MY BOOKMARK NEXT WEEK!!!

This is it guys. I AM LIVING (AND LOSING).

2006-08-10T07:51:00.000+12:00

weighin day weighin day...HEHEHEHE

SOOOOOOOOO HAVE TO KEEP ON TOP OF IT TODAY...
on a course...hense me still sitting in my bed clothes at quarter to 8..naughty naughty.

shared lunch...need to stay focused...FOCUSSSSSSSSSSED.

sooooooo want to record a loss.....SOOOOOO want to!!!!!!!!!!!

will update tonight, weighin at 6pm...bring on 6pm!!!!!!!!!!!!

have a good day..!!

2006-08-09T18:26:00.000+12:00

HAPPY GIRLS AND SMELLY BOYS....

cranking aqua at the moment, trying to think of moves for a dance routine for production..haha...and well its meant to be happy boys and happy girls..but no cam just farted. I liked my title better.

SOOO FEELING THE GOOD BUZZ AT THE MOMENT. LIKE HARD OUT...
I turned up to work and everyone noticed that I was hypo..I was acting like an egg..but still. SOOOOOOO COOL.

my book is still progressing....my eating is rocking today and yesterday very happy!!! AND two of my kids found out where i lived and asked if i wanted to buy chocolate..i said yes...because I SO CANT SAY NO TO MY KIDS...and then immediately gave it to cam to pig out on .....GO ME. think thats why he's farting actually. I'M SO NOT GOING TO EAT THE CHOCOLATE...weighin tomorrow I'M PUMPED!!

OOOOOOOO i have a challenge tomorrow...shared lunch at a union meeting...sooooooo need to stay focused and not forget about weighin....will take a big bottle of water so i remember..and load myself up with a handbag of fruit...thats a good plan aye??

right. time to finish my diet coke and have dinnner...GOOOOO ME.

AL CAR RA SMOOTHIES RECIPES...HAHA...

ANY FRUIT FROM THE FRUIT BOWL...

QUARTER TO HALF A CUP OF WATER...just depends how i'm feeling haha.

BLEND....

...DRINK.

That one from the photo had a bit of melon in it, banana, orange and two kiwifruit...its honestly just anything i grab that I feel like chopping up in the blend...the water just thins it out....TRY IT...SOO YUMM!!

2006-08-08T17:21:00.000+12:00

Right. This girl is on a mission.

Life is too short and I want more out of life...to do this I need to lose the weight..and LIVE.

Do you like my drink? its my new addition..fruit smoothies...

Its nothing but fruit and a little water to make it thinner...a minute in the blender...and bobs ya uncle!!
Yum as!!!!!!! its my mid afternoon snack to tie me over till dinner time..its working a treat!!!

That and having a class of coke before dinner to fill me up...THANKS FOR THAT TIP *wink wink*

WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING ELSE??? i just did 10km on the bike, I slept in this morning..so i went on the bike..it was soo good. did it while watching home and away...MATE WASNT THAT GOOD TONIGHT..AND SAD...anyways very happy about that...need to work off some hot chips from the weekend, not just one....4 lots!!!!!!!!!!! not good. but in my defense I ate them at meal times and stuck to the programme other than the hot chips!!! so i'm working my butt off I WANT A LOSS THIS WEEK...going to meetings is great..learning lots and its like having mini goals....lol...TALKING LIKE ITS A NEW THING..HAHA.

oo here's my book to show i'm doing it still.....and there is the article from the nz slimmer of the year...all in my book...SOO LOVING MY BOOK RIGHT NOW!!!

I JUST WANT MORE OUT OF LIFE AND SITTING ON MY NELLY ISNT GOING TO HELP ME...

Someone cracked a fat joke today. I just looked at them...and said "thats not funny". I left the room cracking up at myself for doing that. Would normally do the token laugh. but no i was strong. TOTALLY not trying to think about what they were saying when I left...!!!

lol cam just brought me my token diet coke drink before meal time..HEHEHE i feel so loved. I TELL YA I'M GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT....AND BE HOT AND SO NOT CRACK FAT JOKES THAT ARENT FUNNY AND JUST LOVE LIFE....!! ACTUALLY i'm starting to love life now....HEHEHE

2006-08-06T18:48:00.000+12:00

Do you want motivation???!!!

Here is NZers slimmer of the year....WHAT A LEGEND. She lost just over the amount I need to lose and in the newspaper there is a photo of her and she is wearing a white suit SHES SUPER HOT...omg so good. I got warm fuzzies reading her inspirational story...

sorry no picture on here...and my scanner isnt working...nzers get todays sunday star times - front page..THATS HER!!!
http://www.stuff.co.nz/stuff/sundaystartimes/0,2106,3755912a6005,00.html

Thanks for the support about the wwers journal. Its going really well. I have been using it lots and go for gold if you think it will work for you too....I have shown cam what I am eating and that article from todays paper...I said next time I am feeling down open this page up and show me!!!

Right, have to go...but just wanted to share!!! SO SO SO GOOD.

No zoo, weather poos...went to kelly taltons instead, very cool. Will share photos tomorrow...!!

2006-08-05T22:57:00.000+12:00

My project for the afternoon....

my food journal...!!!

I brought a hard covered lecture book and I have decorated it with weightwatchers stuff from magazines and inspiration quotes...

Inside on the first page is my starting details..
starting weight...measurements..bmi...passport photo..
date...etc...

where the big gap is I'm going to add a photo.. no ink in printer to print one off...

on the next page is tips from my meeting so i dont forget them..they were good tips...going to try and do this every thursday night so it stays fresh and have a point of call for information and inspiration..motivation..etc...

And this page is also the start of my food journal...

I have friday and saturday there...going good aye..little blow out last night but nothing that I cant manage in my new LIFESTYLE!!!!

its meant to be like a big creative book to store information and articles..and just have a progression of my day to day stuff while also being accountable...TO MYSELF. ITS MY BOOK ABOUT ME FOR ME....
going to add in quotes and hints and tips as I go...

I'm pretty pleased with myself. hehe. No zoo today was feeling yukky still this morning...heading out there tomorrow....to also pick up our new laptop and dvd digital camera!!!!!!!!! We have brought them for the purpose of our overseas trip in 2008, we want them now to have them paid off before the end of this year so next year is just a matter of saving to go away...which we are doing now too but we would rather get everything from now on..so we have it and next year is solid savings...VERY VERY EXCITED.

right so over my bedtime...TIP FROM ME...eat chewing gum...that extra stuff...avoids eating....and gives ya mouth a workout!!!