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The year that was!!!

OMG WHAT A YEAR I HAVE HAD...AND I'M UP TO MY LAST POST OF IT ALREADY!!

I can so remember when I was emailing a year ago saying I had a job interview to go to before my last holiday..and then sneaking on at my uncles house xmas eve to say I HAD A JOB!!

I not only have a job now, I HAVE A LIFE!!!

I am losing weight.
I am feeling great.
I am doing wonderful things with myself and with cam.
We are simply living!!!

Its been a long time since we've been able to liveeeeeeee the way we want to live, enjoy OUR MONEY and not always worry or panic about my family and their crazy antics.

a year ago we were on the bones of our butt hoping the power wasnt cut off and feeding ourselves fish and chips because a packet to feed us was only $3 and thats all we could afford. A year ago I was running back and forth from wellington to help my dad and back to hamilton to have my brother living/bludging off us...

NOW omg...we brought a house for dad, we buy fresh fruit and we have people in our lives who care deeply for us and dont take us for granted. WE ARE LIVING...

and to celebrate our living...we are off tomorrow!! in the space of 3 and a half weeks we are traveling to hamilton (cams family), gisborne (OUR HOUSE and my family), wellington (to say bye to a friend going on her oe.) and tripping around the WHOLE SOUTH ISLAND!!!!! OMG...ITS OUR FIRST REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL HOLIDAY. and boy o boy WE ARE GOING TO ENJOY IT!!!!

Now many of this wouldn't be possible without Cam, he's been a dream. But there is another world in my life that I wouldn't be without. THIS ONE!! I have shared so much with you, saddness, happiness, tears, secrets..the works...there is so much to be said for blogland. When there is no where else to turn and you think you're all alone....you're not!! Its so nice to share and experience what other people are going through as wel..
This is my message for you THANKKKKKKKK YOU for an awesome year that was!!!

AND HERE'S THE THE MANY MORE POSTS, MEMORIES AND EXPERIENCES WE WILL SHARE TOGETHER.

Have a safe, merry and happy christmas!!! ENJOY YOURSELF...live life likes its meant to be lived...take it with one hand and run with it!!! ITS OURSSSSSSS TO ENJOY!!!


from the both of us, to the rest of you...

MERRYYY CHRISTMASSS!!!

HO HO HO!!!

HALF A DAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Up and out early this morning, secret santa presents to drop off, paper to file and a roll to total up!!! all the fun jobs at the end of the year!!!

I have had an awesome year!!! I, like ang, will miss my little darlings but they'll still be in school and they'll be learning more than i can ever teach them...so it will be fun watching them grow up in the school....

yesterday my year was topped off!!! we had a formal prizegiving..it was really fun. I organised two dance troops for the event with some kids over the last few weeks...and in one of the dancers I and another teacher got up and joined in!!! (this was a secret from everyone!!!) it went down really well...lots of claps and laughter hehehe. my kids said to me after "you're a real cool dancer miss" hahaha.

ANDDDDDDDDDD i recieved an award at prizegiving, I thought it was just for kids...but i got one too!!! FROM THE PRINCIPAL HAHAHAH for "wonderful contribution to View Road School". The crowd went nuts (excited) when I got my award, I was very touched!!!!
And after that lots of parents came up and gave me really cool compliments my head was HUGE!!!!!!!! hahaha

food wise. I HAVE A PROBLEM. An overeating problem. its gross and i've decided just to forget it today. enjoy my last day and use tomorrow to get on track before we go away!!!

righto off to plant secret santa presents!!! ENJOY YOUR LAST DAY(S) if you're teaching (or finishing work soon)!!!

33 comments OMG!!!

Thank you soo much for all your kind words. Cam and I were both very touched!!!

We are very happy!!!! We have enjoyed sharing our story with family and friends...we're still in the process of telling people - as we want to tell people as we see them rather than via text or phone. Its been fun seeing everyones reactions!!!

I AM SOOO OVER EATING. And it has to stop. Yeahhhhhh having a good time but I am not doing what I want to do. My ankle is just annoying me...so after I finish my paperwork today I am offfffff on a walk.

Cam and I have been talking lots about weddings FREAKY!! But we're probably going to talk more and think more on our holiday together...STARTING FRIDAY YEAHHHHHHH!!!

We are honestly soooooooooo happy and enjoying life right now...so happy to have lots of happy people around us helping us enjoy our life too!!!

I have gained 1kg in the week of no exercise and not following the programme...not following the programme and not exercise - IS JUST NOT AN OPTION. I dont want to be someone who is losing weight for their wedding, I want to lose weight for my life....I dont want to stress myself out about the size I am and the size I want to be...I am just going to focus on going down..NOT UP.

right. paperwork here I come. THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS!!!!

HE ASKED THE QUESTION..

ohhhh my gosh..what a crazy day I have had.

Want the story?????



This morning I did my normal routine at school, photocopying, sorted the class out, headed to the hall to set up jump jam. (secretly teachers were have secret meetings without me!!!)



At 9am we headed over to the hall, and did jump jam (kids aerobics..), nothing out of the normal...then one teacher asked if she could get her kids to practise their dance infront of all the classes (allll 5 of them!!!). No worries, I got the classes to sit down and watch..my friend at school whos a teacher got me out of the hall to bitch about a school teacher that we both dont get on!!! of course i was up for it and AGAIN DIDNT THINK ANYTHING OF IT...the kids did their performance...AND THEN..



my friend said "room 8 now has an item to show..." WTF? thats my class? I have no item!! SO UP THE KIDS GOT.



"miss 14pk is lovely.."

"miss 14pk is funny..."

"miss 14pk is fun.."

"miss 14pk is caring.."

(this went down the line..)

by this stage i was crying because my class is cute!!!!



Then i got called up to the front...so off i went...



THEN THE CLASS SAID..."BUT MISS 14pk WE HAVE ONE QUESTION..."



and out came cam, he bent down on one knee and i bawled my eyes out!!!!



we're engaged!!!!!!!!! (I SAID YES!!)



this is my ring, and we'll be using my grandmothers inhertiance from last year to buy our rings!!! (this has been our plan for awhile as gran knew both of us really well).

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSED.

end of year.
paperwork.
packing up the classroom.
returning resources.
kids going mental.
went for a walk.
ankle swelled up again.
STUPID ANKLE.
cant stop thinking about school.
4 and a half days to go.
SO MUCH TO DO.

eeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blah.

blah blah blah.
things i have to do.
things i dont feel like doing.

things i want to do.
things i cant do.

its paperwork vs me time and me times is LOSING.

its all good..once its done its done. Only a week to go!!!
Finding myself nibbling on things I wouldnt normally nibble on..and eat things that arent the best choices. SEE BAD HABITS SLIPPING BACK IN!!!

STOP STOP STOP.
I am so incontrol...just letting the tired lazy me take over sometimes.

cute school story!!!
my cellphone went off during class, it was on vibrate and still on the table - so you know it makes that ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ noise and bounces around.
my little boy stilling at the talbe with me stands up, looks at my phone with deep concentration. Looks at the sides, looks up and down it...round and round it - doesnt touch it. Just looks...and then shows a sign of confusion.

WHERES THE WHEELS???

What wheels??

THE WHEELS TO MAKE IT MOVE LIKE IT JUST DID?!!

heheheheheh CUTE AYE???
back to reports. (correctly spelling errors DOL).

2 turkish delights.
1 big packet of grain waves.
1 big packets of vege chips (half way through now..)
12 little blocks from a big block of cabury fudge dessert chocolate...
and a bottle of diet coke in front of me.

HUGE HUMP.

was starving after school - cam wasnt home....and i felt naughty. I was craving naughty foods...LIKE CRAVINGGGGGGGGGGGG. So i ate..and ate and ate.

so embarasing. AND I KEPT TALKING TO MYSELF THE WHOLE TIME...NO NO NO...and being positive to myself...

but i got in the car and ateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

NEW RULE: no eating in my car!!!

but in looking at it all - it was semi expected with my patterns.
hurt myself, end of term, tired... EXCUSES FOUND. no exercise. lazy tracking. BINGE BELL RINGS.

AND CERTAIN TIGGERS SET ME OFF - got really drunk on friday night and some dude smoked drugs in front of me (I HIT THE ROOF) and told him what i thought as I have lost a brother to drugs (he's around..but he's clueless and only cares about himself..have no idea what he does from day to day..blah blah) and i've been a bit upset ever since about it....then today i got a text from my mother....WITH THOSE POWERS COMBINE.....I AM CAPTAIN BINGE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its over now. so it doesnt matter, i just have to think about what i want and where i'm going. i was ashamed buying the food and avoided everyone who knows me in the supermarket because everyone knows i'm losing weight...because they can see it. AND IF I'M ASHAMED THEN ITS NAUGHTY!! thats what i tell my kids lol....PRACTISE WHAT I PREACH!!!

rant over. binge over.

TIME TO MOVE ON. (i feel so in control its great, i am in control....had a slip up..but thats ok...i've learnt my lesson...feel like poo...).